him

it's been so long,
since i had dinner with the fellow councillors.
one more person is cleared.
and there's like 36 more hours to go before the horror ends
i hope it will end by then
it will be then i can settle down my thoughts and concentrate my other stuff

*****

i've just been pondering a lot over it
although it doesn't seems to matter if i care or not.
there's already alot of people worrying
why should i even care if i doesn't makes any difference.
i wish i could be indifferent, like you are..

-standing strong, i hope i can take it, but you hope i cant...-