my boring life

it's like ages since i've last seen my family members awake when i reach home.
did morning shift today.
and i reached home before 11pm!
woahh!
record time wors..
did opening on my own.
and i think this is like my 3rd time??
was hilarious when i practised what one of my seniors taught me.
the skill of balancing 3 condiment trays on one single hand!
i did that successfully for the first time,
and the second time,
PHOOOOFF!
everything cling clang to the ground.
i could only laugh at myself and sweep up all the cheese and chilli flakes
so much of my hard work during closing when i had to refill all those.
hehe,
being kelly,
i continued trying for 3 more times.
before im satisfied,
and by then im already done with that=)
one lucky thing is that my manager haven reach yet,
and just the dumb chef suaning my silly-ness.

actually planned to baked more brownies after work
for jon's gift tomorrow.
but then....
was too tired and lazy.
hehee,
save the treat for another time=)
tomorrow's finally meeting up with the un-acknoledged Athenians!
cuckoo name came up by the crazy old man!
those schooling and stressed up days,
that really drove people mad=P
hope i can get the loco roco game tomorrow too!

sunday finally my off day after like 9 consecutive days of work!!
can spend lotsa time playing with kynan boy=)
his mummy told me how he allowed an Indian man to carry him on the train ride
and even gave him a goodbye kiss
make this yiyi so guilty=((
hahaa..
the "sweet" innocence of a young boy!

shall meet up with more people soon!
make my days more fulfilling.
off to sleep!
and working early tomorrow again=)
the paycheck makes my work over these few days satisfying!!

-we live these days once only,
shall learn cherish and not complain=))-

i think i'm one weird person.
i cant stand it when people compliment me.
it seems so superficial to me.
especially regarding appearane.
dont know why?
which girl doesnt like to be picked up?
me perhaps.
cos it just makes me doubt you further.
once bitten twice shy.
just shut up about it
and all will be forgotten=)

my purpose

it's so amusing reading my sister's blog
on how kynan and her spend their time.
it reminds me of how kynan boy called yiyi when im about to leave for work.
when he saw me changed and taking my bag,
he took his dino bag too,
and asked me to put it on for him.
then he said his "ah-goo!" [aka "let's go!"=)]
but when i tell him im going work,
he's still alright to let me leave the house,
and gave me his wet wet kisses on my cheek.
even through the gate he also gave me the last peck=))
and called yiyi when i left his sight..
such a sweet boy right=))
all these for playing with him for the entire afternoon.

*****

i've been reaching late for work recently.
shall reach super early today.
since i've got nothing much to do today.
The Dream Catcher show is not uploaded.
nothing for me to do.
i've been wanting to catch some movies
alone.
yeah, haven tried doing it alone..
but didnt have much chance with the movie screening time
and my work and sleeping time=((
boo hooo..
shall try to get up early and go catch a movie.
so glad that this weekend im working early shift.
yeahness!
no 4am for me=))
but got something bad to it too..
come on kelly,
be contented with what you have and dont be so greedy!

*****

i truly believe with the theory of "expect the unexpected."
cos when you expect so much,
usually it wont happen,
or worse,
if the reverse happens.
so so..
kelly, stop dreaming!
if you want,
then dream on!

-If life is as simple as it can be, then it wouldn't be worth living. cos you will never feel the great sense of satisfaction. When asked, why you choose to be a student councillor, i'll usually reply, "to feel the sense of satisfaction." i shall continue with that purpose in life...-

*****

What if you realize,

you are like a candle?
fragrant
beautiful
mystic
but slowly
the blaze,
melts away your layers
shedding your past
spilling your secrets
across
the table
dripping into the carpet
pooling into puddles of memories
thick
molten
experience
which dry and harden
into patterns
when it's over
we're really tiny black wicks
who burn themselves out
all that really matters
is if our experiences
have bled into others
to create something
far greater
or
if we're nothing
but a puddle
of ourselves

bored bored bored

im so so bored.
alone at home and with a dumb com.
not sure if it's a dumb com or the dumb user.
internet supposed to provide non-stop entertainment right?
but i cant figure out how much fun it can be
when im finished with all the routine stuff

blog-hopping:
i think blogs are just the third impression that one tries to create. something different from who they are in real life. there will be varying degrees of differences. and i bloghopped for the fact that i crazily adore the different emotions i can feel from the different blogs i go. some depressing blogs, some oh-did-i-really-need-to-know-these blogs, some that is totally-different-from-whom-i-know blogs that can really piss me off.. so many different kinds yeah.. and the discussion about the last category of blogs is actually the most interesting and entertaining!
im a sicko in the brain, who isn't...?

anyways, it's just boring all together.
last week was so hectic,
while this week is free like dont know what.
been taking my own sweet time to prepare myself for work=)
though i just need to wear the shit-colour shirt and jeans,
i still take ample time for my hair and stuffs.
stuffs like SUN BLOCK, blah blah blah!!
hahaa,
purposely wrote that to irritate rach=)
so so bored!!
shall go take my hour's long of bath and prep
to while my time away..

today's sat again.
not sure if it's love or hate.
cos it will be like super busy
but yet,
we dont have to complain of nothing to do.
geez,
humans are hard to please=))
just hope there's no like weird customers
sometimes they can get really weird that i dont know how to react.
other times,
would just be anger!
oh wells oh..
if work is simple,
then there wouldn't be a need to pay us for the simple job.
accept it, Kelly!
ps: prays for some cute guys to brighten up my day! LOL!

keeping my fingers crossed...!

bored to max

im like totally hopeless on computer stuff
attempted to watch some movies online.
but it just refused to load,
and i just gave up.
ended up watching the 9pm show on youtube.
BUT only ONE episode is uploaded!!!
continued my online shopping,
ended up with zillions of tabs opened
but cant decide on any particular one
and decided that i cant make a proper decision with my spinning headache.
so off i went to zzz...
so all in all,
nothing accomplished!
i still prefer classic shopping,
when you can buy on impulse
and feel the real thing in the carrier you are holding on to!
PLUS i dont know why,
but i dislike chatting online.
dont like the virtual feeling.
where you can choose not to be your real self.
why go deceiving myself talking to these people?
so i think msn only there for me to discuss things=)
and appearing offline in my forte!
to prevent some irritating nonsense.
summarizing all,
im just a com idiot=)
and im proud of it!

im like so bored!
work's at 8pm.
waiting for my 1st major meal of the day,
since my dinner ytd night.
im seriously eating less and less by the day.
no mood, no appetite, no time.
when i feel like eating alot,
i dont have the time.
boo-hooo..!
kelly's disappearing!!!

shall go and bathe and have breakfast-cum-lunch-cum-dinner with mommy=)
then some alone/speed shopping on my own at orchard
before the work!

sweetness

yesterday's my off=)
like the random-ness of how my day can become.
i totally have no plans for it.
and just woke up,
hoping to meet up with py and a sudden crave to bake.
[py said it's my housewife instinct acting up, lol]
soooo.. i just messaged her,
and off i go to bathe and pop over her house=)
enjoyed this kind of randomness the un-routine life.
why live life full of routines,
once a while
once-in-a-blue-moon kinda things are pretty nice=)
finished baking,
got home early for dinner with mummy!
like eons since i last had a proper talk with her..
i like telling her what's my daily life like=)
cos i think she's the only one who wont be bored out by me!
went home to watch my fave tv slot of the day, the 9pm show!
and taaa daaa... there's elvin ng!
wooootsss!
got a lil high, cos it's like so long since i watched a proper episode of tv shows.
the plot is a lil dumb like so expected..
plus their acting skills are like mediocre
so im.. duhh..
but i think seeing elvin ng
at my workplace would make me so much "high-ER" than seeing lin jun jie and joanna peh..
yeah, saw them, and stared enough at them,
i pity celebrities so much for all the scrutiny they gets..
their makeup, dressing comparing them with others, etc
the list never ends i guess..
and kc managed to see elvin ng in real..
how she describes him to me makes me go gaga...
just pray that he will come someday=)
cos he's like much more of my "Utopian kind" of guy to go gaga over=))

had like dozens of brownies for my breakfast=)
sweet sweet taste lingering in my mouth till now love them!
hope my this tub of brownies will last pretty long.
i think the choc must be the reason behind all the high-ness earlier on=)
oh ya, my random-ness continued
till when i have nothing to do at home after my show
and i popped by my workplace and brought the brownies over=)
anyways, there's free ride home..
played loco roco on my friend's psp!!
it's like addictive and yet makes me giddy at times=)
but it's so cute and happy looking at the ball rolling around=))
and it grows!!

i think i've like blogged a long long post..
shall stop here, before i get as irritating as some pig kai..

who post up uber-ly long post! blah blah blah... ... the sweetness, and beyond it goes...

the past and future

i'm feeling so lost.
i have no idea whether i should like change my job
sometimes it gets really tiring,
but still the people there are really nice.
except for those moments when everyone got stressed up
and started cursing and swearing.
anyway,
i think i've already like made up my mind yesterday.
and gotten myself an interview today.
just hope everything will go on fine,
and less decision making on my part...!

when i went back to school the other day,
some nice and cute teachers started talking to me.
regarding those council days
working with another teacher.
im being asked,
"do i feel that i've grown up and learnt alot after those tough times?"
so he's like implying,
that the more difficult the times are,
the more you will get to learn.
well,
this seems like the hard fact of life.
i agreed with him,
and... ...
they are just getting feedback from me,
and trying to help my dear juniors.
perhaps perhaps... ...
i dont know how to continue..
maybe it's different thinking from the perspective when you've been through it.
cos you can only feel the bittersweet feeling,
and yet glad that you've chose to overcome it,
instead of getting help from it.
the main point is that,
maybe i should prove myself wrong,
and see how far my determination can bring me to??
but we should be thinking about our future?
or the present experience??

tell you i'm lost already...

even rainbows fades away...

i'm going in no direction.
where's the happy and optimistic me?
my happy-est teenage year??
all gone with the wind... ...

uber huge post

shall post up some pretty photos since i have some time left=)
x'mas party at my sis place=)

the food and the people

the doggie in tigger's disguise. tigger's outfit that my sis bought from taiwan a bit figure-lugging=P


Dinner for my bday. At Yummy Crab=) the lil boy who's afraid of crab's eyes=)


posing with vain yiyi=P


HAPPY CNY!
karolyn and I


qin qin and I


qin qin, er jie and I notice our eye bags. sobs=((


jie jie and I.
lookalike nehh???


pretty pretty??


poor kai, watching us preparing to go out with his dearest strawberry..


kaiser looks so small=)) like a puppy..


kynan's here to bai nian=))


happy gong gong, kynan boy and i
he cant take his eyes off him..
with my heels, im taller than all the guys in my family=)



my fave one=) the shuai ge and mei nu!!=P


below are the videos of how a lil boy learns to club=)
dancing to some kylie minogue songs=))
enjoy!



pheww..
1 hr gone just for this!
just in time to bathe and work=))

5sistas

5 sistas!!
sheesh, I'm running late for work!
but cant resist to put up this pretty photo=))
jiejie, yeshh, i saw them already!!
more to come when im really free=))

the dark tunnel.
it's up to you what you want to focus on.
the darkness
or the light at the end of it...

yiyiiii...

some gross update first=)
i was eatingsome steamed yam cake
[which is supposedly healthier in my dad's opinion as compared to the black and spicy carrot cake]
with the brownish red sauce all over it.
when i finally stop eating,
i started coughing.
and out came a thick and uberly gross green phlegm
PLUS reddish stuff all over it.
got a shock at first when i thought what illness had i gotten.
then i suddenly remembered
it's just the dumb sauce!
alright, enough of the gross update..
im just being silly.

yeahh, just wanted to say that im sick=(
and it's really irritating!
the headache that never stops spinning
the throat that is always sore
and the nose which is always stuck
so i can only like feel the texture of food going down,
and all tasted like mucus and phlegm to me=((
stop it, kelly!
ALRIGHT! i will really stop that..

orientation coming up at MJ!
wheeee!
that's like a council's biggest event or sth like that.
and im going back on sat! but not at night=(
sobs.. no campfire for me. that's like totally sucky.
and for once, i feel that my job sucks.
saturday night, and im working.. boohoooo!!!
dearest FIVES,
please go back in the afternoon alright..
like pretty please with a cherry on top=)
help to spread,
and ask those peeps to go back in the afternoon, JK!
i know you have the loudest voice=P
so scream and they will know! hahaaa..

yoohoo!
finally met up with my old mama!
she's like having some office job
which she can dress up anyway she wants
no restrictions.
aint that totally awesome?
watched Rachel's getting married.
it's not the chick flick type of plot and
that's like toally what ive expected.
but it turns out totally different,
and it's really heavy in content instead.
it's the first time i caught a movie in cineleisure.
yeahhh, i know im ancient.
there's like gaming stuffs and arcade on level 9???
just found out yesterday=)
the highest level i've been to is the kbox one.
thereafter is just level 2 and level 2.
sighhss, kelly..

the day before,
i went to TP.
to help may's with her project or something.
it's really cool
being her guest on her radio programme.
and answer questions into the mic and everything=)
and everything is like the real studio..!
nice experience=))
though it's a bit scary at first.
being on air and stuffs..
thanks May=)

i have the sudden urge to do something to my hair.
like something extreme.
cut it real short?
purple streaks?
curl it?
straighten it?
bangs?
i dont know..
make it just a passing phase, cos im afraid i will regret it..

weekends gonna be pretty busy and tired.
work till 4am on friday's night or sat morning,
and sat afternoon going back school then night work till 4am again.
before going all the way to sis place=)
kynan boy turning TWO!
that's like very fast!
yoohoo...!
and i can see him again=))
plus the way he calls "yiyiiiii..." makes my heart melts!

i think i've gibberished alot alot of rubbish in my previous post.
too many things kept inside,
now that it's out (in a subtle way)
i can blog more happily=))

i want to shop!
im like craving for hundred and one things in the world!
goshh, gotta stop this,
if not i will spend all the money that i intend to save.

wanna get a new wallet.
the turquoise purse is still waiting for me at accessorize=)
get a camera=)
like that i can take picture of everything that i see
cos everything leaves my sight far to fast
for my brain to capture into memories
PLUS,
i saw a lady customer at my workplace
carrying a Polaroid camera!
uber cute can,
the photo comes out instantly!
like derrr...!
but it's so huge and bulky=((
not practical at all!
still wanna get a bag, blah blah blahhh...
and the list never ends..
note to myself not to get any more clothes.
cos i cant get much chance to wear them!
everyday just that shit colour shirt will do=))

-i wanna i wanna i want to...!-

lifeeeee

life been full of ups and downs
surprises or shocks?
im not sure either.
could only know that we could then grow our of all these difficulties.
just got to accept it.

ive been down with flu=((
it always happen after i manage to get a super long sleep.
is it that my theory really holds?
that when you sleep more,
you provide more time for the virus to build up?
i hope it's not this way.
if not i will make myself sleep as little as possible!

furthermore, i'll still be going for the tuition work
PLUS my normal work.
sheeshh.
hope my flu virus will disappear,
like how people disappear from my life.
as easy as it seems..

many friends around me had been quitting their jobs.
not sure why is it just typical of our generation or something?
then perhaps I'm ancient.
or that it's just in my zhu family genes.
the never say never attitude.
these genes are bad in a way that it makes you see more people leaving,
because you'll be the last to leave=(
i'll then start comparing work with school.
school no doubt is fun with so many friends with you and not constantly changing.
but the HOMEwork that one had gotta do,
makes no difference to the long hours of work
plus all my cca hours,
i think work is like a shorter duration.
lol..
all in all, they are all the same.
just depends on how your mentality slants towards..
soooo...
it's still the doing of your brains,
the power of mankind
and the reason why the world is like this..

ps: i dislike blogs for it's superficiality and the fact that it only shows the side of the blogger whom he/she wants others to know. so perhaps you guys can stop patronising my blog cos perhaps you're thinking this way of me=)