gogogo!!

weeks are passing pretty quickly.
quite caught up with work for a few days,
gotten leave today to go back to mj for investiture.
hmmm..
i could only say,
it makes me ponder about our own invest.
and those bittersweet memories.
then i begun surfing youtube for our past videos,
and realised that some of the council videos i didnt see it before!
gossh..
think im doing some other things at that time or sth.
anyways, thanks for uploading!
i dont know how to upload youtube videos here,
so pardon me,
go browse on your own=))

*****

i think the last few days i dont think im in a realistic world.
sorta in my own world,
lazing and stuck in my korean shows and stuffs.
feel so dumb now..
i felt like i want to go korea all a sudden.
it just felt real,
that it's possible and that i really want to.
went to check the price of the tickets and everything..
but when i get home,
i started thinking i still wont be able to see the idol from the show right even if i were to go there??
i felt so silly..!
seriously..
and i thought about how i would regret it
cos ive been there and now i want to waste my hard-earned money there??
rather than other things that are not one-time off..
furthermore, memories second time wont be that fresh right..
sigghhss..
shall just focus my spending in hong kong=))
this is like the first time i've gotten so silly over some stranger that exists in computers!
shall save that money for rainy days,
and just spend a smaller amount on korean language lessons.
feel like learning things now..
my brain feel so useless and untouched!
gotta do sth with it=)

*****

went for a run yesterday.
like finally i've had a proper exercise since i started working.
felt so "jiggly" when i started on my first few runs!
lol..
really "jiggly"! [im not that skinny, just that the un-seenable are hidden well=)]
hahahhaah..
embarassing!
yeahh, shall continue with my that good habit.
leaving office on the dot,
stop my addiction on shows
[i practically watched that show during office hours and straightaway when i reach home. lunch and dinner in front of the com!]
and running alot alot!
okays, jogging..
cos i dont want any carrot legs from the muscles formed from running=)
plus sit ups!!!
gogogo, a-jahh fighting..!

-every single little goal accomplished cheers my life up...-

hopes and wean

im learning...
trying me best to get used to it
give me time to do so...

-i forced myself not to bring my hopes up...-

alice-licious mind

Just some random thoughts
Im thinking if i were to be Alice from the Twilight series.
i think i would not be able to predict any future.
cos people's decisions are a constant change.
nothing is constant for change is constant.
wooaahhh, i seriously make so much sense.

im trying my best to hold myself back.
cos i wanna save my last few Jungbo episodes for the weekend=(
sobs.
i think i will be seriously be deprived of his incredible jokes!
planning to rewatch their parts again,
but i still think it will give a different feel.
cos jokes wont be as funny when heard twice??
after watching the shows and listening to the OSTs
i feel like learning Korean!
since ive been so free for the past few months
and upcoming months=)
shall spend my hard-earned money! [seriously, hard =P]
any interested parties???=))

ive been having such sudden urge to do something over the past few months.
cutting real short hair, being air stewardess, model, learning dancing, korean, yada yada......
just hope reading the Twilight series wont make me feel to be vampire!!
lol..
but i can think about it,
wont mind their extraordinary beauty=)
i think im seriously thinking too out of the box!

-what if i have a alice-licious mind...-

confusion

my soju is loading very slowly recently.
or is it just my office lappie or network
so so frustrating.
anyways, work these few days had been pretty relaxing.
cos im doing some portal thing,
and they just launched it.
so until ytd afternoon and i started having nightmares!
gosh..
been slacking really free-ly for the past few days. [and getting paid!]
and now, gotta do the cleaning up=(
whoever who says that office jobs are tough should consider again.
lol.

anyways,
im almost done with that Korean variety show, We Got Married.
the Jungbo episodes are ending soon,
and i cant bare to watch them end!!
that time when the other couples were separated it was so so sad!!
gosh, these celebrities are really good to get people to feel so much for them!!
they really provide entertainment for me in the office.
when i must control my laughter behind my jacket!
but still,
my fellow temp still glances at me when im doing it
but now,
i think she's getting use to it.
lol.
nevertheless, go watch the shows if you're really free=)
seriously entertaining.
shall try to find such person in the real world we are living in!
since the show supposed to be a REALITY show =P

hmmm...
the brain at the back had been working hard as well..
been thinking of a couple of things..
buuuttttt..
i dont know how to put them into words i think.
i can just feel those thoughts being processed back behind..
lol.
im not sure what im talking abt either.
it just feels that way i guess...

gonna end here and go back to my shows!
hope they are done with buffering!!!

-less contact, less conflicts...??? cos you will soon be forgotten...-

disappointing!

hhttppfftt..
hates the after lunch hour.
cos i'll be all groggy and stuffs.
lol.
better not come and disturb me in that time.
i bite!

*****

so disappointing!
my ever-reliable Mysoju disappointed me today.
was happily watching the We are Married series,
when some of the episodes broken down.
ultimate!!
the past few days,
i did not OT at all.
but still slept late
cos of these dramas=)
it's a reality show.
hence, i like the "real-ness" in it,
yet it can bring me away from my actual reality.
hmmm...
messy messy again.
lol.
it's okays.
it's funny.
i was reading my past few post and i actually forgotten what im talking abt
so much of being discreet
such that i cant remember it.
my rambling and stuffs.
these meant that they arent that significant afterall.
cos i can still remember some of which=)

*****

anyways,
since the show arent up,
gonna work harder again.
my dumb agent made a mistake in the contract.
so mine is supposed to end on 15th march!
wooottss!
not sure to cheer or what.
but anyways,
quite an relief=)
i can look forward to go for my HK shopping trip with family and the DINO!!
heehee!

*****

was feeling pretty down for last weekend.
pissed instead i think.
i cant stand people interfering my life, my decisions.
giving non-constructive criticism.
well,
after a talk with karolyn,
i think she does make a bit sense [for once uhhuh..=)]
it's just trying to put people down.
cos of they are lacking confidence
such a simple logic.
well, the more criticisms i get
the more i wish to prove it wrong.
normal kelly nature=)
go on, continue and criticise.
thanks for making me stronger...!
but i think because of the length of the friendship,
that is why it's bothering me so much.
cos it's just so disappointing.
i doubt the concern in it,
and i think there's more emotions deep down in you
that i can sense
and it is also that, that disappoints me so much.
whatevers.
i can get on with my life better without trying so much.
sometimes it so true that you can only share your good times with some people.
and not with others.
i kept quiet there and then,
just because i know there will be no end to it.
forget it.
it will past.
cos i seriously dont think it ever or EVEN bothered you.

*****

wells,
went to club on last wed
to rebel and attica
at clarke quay area.
hmmm..
the songs are slightly better in comparison to zouk
cos there's more r&b songs.
but the crowd...
sama sama..
lol.
every clubbing experience will end in the same awful way.
how tired i will be the next day.
plus, this time,
i slept 2 hours,
and managed to drag myself to work the next day.
energetically!
just that i fell sick the following weekend!
hahahah!
so torturous!
anyways,
the time spent in the club is always high and fun.
hahaha [im seriously not on drugs or anything]
but it's just the aftermath.
not like i really enjoy the taste of alcoholic drinks also.
so yeahhh..
and many people asking me to go clubbing this weekend.
abit all of a sudden,
but yeah,
i think i will keep it to max once a month lah,
too energy consuming!
for now..

*****
gonna go back to work now..
3 of the temps are now chiong-ing the same thing.
so amusing..!

-it's just the support i need...-

ps: im not a very friendly person. i closes convo boxes with strangers, dont reply strangers on taggie, yada yada.... =)) that is oh-so-me..

purple and gay

saw my paycheckS for both the jobs that i've been holding.
happy-ness!
cos it's during the the transition period,
hence both amounts added up tog to a rather pretty amount=)
but ive been spending more too!
hence,
i think it all cancels out in one way or another.
Like always,
Money cant accomplish everything
but money can definitely help you to accomplish somethings.
contradicting and confusing=((

anyways,
im so supposed to be OT-ing.
back to my survey forms.
i've been delaying for so long.
cos of the dumb portal.
im not making so much sense.
cos these are like what my job scope revolves around.
just some simple mindless things that perm-staff refuses to do.
and that's what it makes temp staff happy.
cos they will be employed=)
budden..
today wasnt as purple and gay as i want it to be.
cos of the pay im getting.
a bit annoyed by the agency.
cant understand why there's like a difference there.
and it amounts to hundreds per month..
cant fight for it myself either.
so i think have to "swallow" it,
and be pleased with whatever i have.
ps: i seriously dont mind those around me getting more,
but i dislike the fact that the agency is earning more for the work that im putting in!
hhtttpppfffttt..!
just hope and pray hard that some nice soul will do something!

saturday was great=)
went with all my sisters to watch Shopaholic.
yeah, sisters as in the real genetically related one.
lol.
this is like our first movie outing all together.
cos the past were like cartoons when we were young,
and we've never had one movie when all of us watched together.
thought that it was kinda cool to have a girly evening out.
when all of us used to snatch and take turns to read the series by Sophie Kinsella.
but the movie turned out to be rather different i think.
[isn't that what usually happens?]
and bringing my 2nd sis to the wrong cinema
when she leads me into it and i followed
when im supposed to be the one leading??
neh mind..
shall be forgiving and nice..=)
the girly day out ended with dinner with mom
[oh ya, we abandoned her for ard 2 hours=P]
followed by playing with kynan boy!!!
like always,
i end up falling asleep unknowingly.
sleep deprivation lahh!
only like from 5am till 10 am the following morning.
cos of the work at cine.
i think the people there are getting less lovable..=(
cos so many of them had left..
sadness.
and more new people coming..
i resist changes..
sadly..

-what happen to my purple and gay day...-