me and my emotions

finally blogging after eons.
havent had the mood nor time to blog for the past few weeks.
time really flies.
how to catch more time when it doesnt allows me to.
shall not complain.
cos it wont be of any use.

yeah, week 6 is almost up.
left with 2 hours of lessons tmr.
this is the dont know how many thursday night i've burnt.
all my thursday night are dedicated to my beloved math.
im just getting stuck in whatever i'm doing.
and end up copying from the tutorial class the next day.
oh wells..
how much i love work as compared to school.
the grass is always greener on the other side=(
spent my entire day on math online lecture.
hopefully the tongue twister Limits chapter wil make more sense to me.
2pm to 3am.
total enthusiaism in mathematics.
how i wish effort = results..

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been pondering alot for the past week.
wondering why the older we get the less emotions we sense.
is it that we are numb to these emotions or is it that we're living a pace of life that is too fast that we can't stop and think about what is happening and what to feel? if i were to compare my life of emotions to a glass bottle of tears, i've got a feeling the bottle is dried up. no matter how much i think, i still cant get some things outta my head. let it be stuck inside and clog up my cute lil spongebob=( and my brain will not be as absorbent and cute as spongebob. at times, i seriously feel like running up to someone close and sob real hard in a tight hug. like a lil kid who just fell down on the concrete pavement. but i doubt i have that much tears left in me to have a good cry. kelly, life doesn't work that way.. grow up and accept it..

in the new phase of life, the transition, the adaptation, the more different faces i see, the more different sides of the many different faces the more complex my life gets. i just cant stop myself from thinking too much. my spongebob refuse to be inactivated. cant help it. more time spent with people around me, the more things i see about them. i could only accept it and regard it as whom they are. what i really want, i'm also unsure. fickle-minded kelly. shall TRY to continue to live in my world. my peaceful one. think this goal can only be accomplished when im in my lalaLAND. but im still glad i always have someone i can turn to. just hope the reliance on each other will never die off.. sound so les-sy.. but who cares! having a girlfriend to turn to as and when needed is really a heaven among the hell. whoever who said that uni is a breeze ought to be shot! so much of play and chiong at the end.. as if it works that way when we need to go back and listen to lectures again in our own time. nonsense. anyways, shall not get pissed over nothing. dont waste the little emotions i have=P

i smile at the thought of your presence
the many years of friendship we have
i know,
will be strong enough
to bring us through our difficult times
let's hold on there together, girly!

if i were to really set my ideal standards of a true friend, maybe i can count them in 1 hand??
reality is never equals to ideality.
kelly, just give up trying to make your ideas ideal..
*in the process of brainwashing... ...*

shall stay in hall over the friday night.
my own world on the mountain top!
ajar ajar hwaiting!!!

-Reliance. You will never get enough of it.-

jay chou "cai hong" keep ringing in my head... =((

i got a feeling..that the night gonna be a good night...whoo hooo..