exams, pms, homesickness..

exams are sick.

tests before exams are worst.

not sure if i can endure so long before the start of the exams.

need to be stuck here in hall.

with no one i can talk to as and when i like.

no kaiser i can hug, no kynan whom i can hug.

eating the same old canteen food over and over again.

who says uni life is tonnes better than college days ought to be shot.

they are equally bad

just that in different sense.

hope i will be equally stressed throughout the weekdays.

so that i can complete my work fast and go home next week.

horrible staying in the room on my own.

but if i were to go out and mingle,

i know i wont be able to study.

such a dilemma!

argghss!

hateful but cant help it.

this bout of homesickness is real bad.

coupled with the stress and inconfidence for my papers.

if im not gonna S/U my korean,

i better put in ten fold more effort.

kelly, you better do it or you will regret.

if im unable to breakaway from the paper chase,

i better start working hard.

better than regretting and being remorseful after getting my grades.

sometimes i really pause and ponder,

what am i doing all these for.

and i will just end up with the same conclusion.

because i don have the courage to stop what i am doing

or the piece of degree than thousands others are pursuing with me;

i had to endure these shit.

it's just 3 and half more years.

thereafter,

life changes completely.

school stops,

and i will start complaining about how life sucks at that moment and how school used to be so wonderful.

life's like that,

im like that.

we will never be happy with what we have.

so much of telling myself to being contented.

i can only look up to my role models,

and tell myself to work harder to achieve what i've achieved.

no matter what my life turns out to be,

it's in my own hands.

if i want to continue wasting my life away,

living my life at my own pace,

who cares about me.

everyone, everybody everything still move on...

alrights,

pms stress and homesickness seriously ain't best friends):

-i will grow stronger from life's challenges.. yes i will...-