my weekends!

BEWARE! this is a super long post for my entire weekend!!

photos from yesterday!
out with my family..

cool dude! the love of our lives!



posee!!



killing my sis!!



pretty desert with my mum



does the jacket look familiar, jia wen???

a sigh of relief!
I've spent my entire Sunday afternoon on my I&R [insights & reflections, sorry, i cant footnote it(=].
for those who doesn't know,
it's actually part of PW, project work,
which just takes up our stress-OUT days after promos.
it is practically driving me nuts.
the wr (written report) and op (oral presentation) is real rubbish
although there seems to be a few components to the entire PW subject,
but with the many many drafts we had to submit,
it's just takes up the entire year.
so much of training us for the future when i just don't understand the significance behind all these except to add on to our already "heavy" workload.

enough of whinings..
now is back to the other parts of my life.
actually I'm not really doing a lot of things since promos was over.
i was practically relaxing the whole day
and pushing away more important stuff for fun
council work is piling up,
but I'm just been procrastinating
and I've been having fun for the past few weeks
leaving so much outstanding matters to clear.
vending, prom, TMP, etc etc etc..
those ICs working with me are such poor things..
shall settle down from today onwards.

next few things on the calendar is as follows
Chinese A's, Fahrenheit 652, Prom..
Left with last week to chinese A's
gotta study for it
cos i hope to do well
and not need to take this another "waste-my-time" subject next year.
i want to be like my great mentor
suaning me when her timetable ends latest at 3 plus
and me at 5 plus.

i still have the Sunburst Youth Camp (SYC).
something isn't like a normal camp,
but just staying out from home for the ENTIRE week in dec,
to play host to students from other ASEAN countries.
somethings which seems interesting yet tiring i guess.
imagine a camp which requires rehearsals held by professional choreographer to prepare us for Cultural night,
something that likens our campfire night on last night of the camp
and it's starting this weekend..
dang!
there goes my weekends..

*****

is this the meaning of getting a life of my own??
i will endure all these.
hearing things not from you
seeing through your facade
worrying deep inside, silently
you will be fine..

- i pray for you, hoping all will be over soon.. on a better note..-

ratain

shag...
went for keechen's class chalet on yesterday night.
helped them set up fire,
cos their class has only that few pathetic guys and the bimbos to add to the chaos
although wasn't of much help
but my arms still ache big time from all the frantic fanning
after that went home to nap a while longer,
and im out shopping again with my family..

when i took bus home from chalet
the long bus journey was planned to recoup my beauty sleep
but was too disrupted by a sms
i just thought hard and recall the many many things that had happened
ever since i chose mj and joined council.

the reality can be so harsh
to anybody, even to the good guys
i'm not sure how to express myself well,
but only words of thanks for making my council life, my life in MJ much more special in every ways.
we always poke fun at him
and he still accepted them,
thanks!

we will always remember those days..

-the harsh reality of life, and the dark moments...-

BBQ pics

finally finished loading the pictures from the bbq onto my laggy com

here's some of them!



trying to take our "family" portrait using the huge mirror:



the b'dae cake.



our 1st attempt to have everyone's faces in
camera set on timer, and we just keep posing



timer just keeps going off...


and after our umpteen attempts,

tadaaa~~still some faces are blocked!



-the girls of the night
and when someone can't figure out what gender he/she is..




and the guys of the night-
and the someone blocks people's face again.. tsktsk.



lastly, the two person dear to me
they really liven up my secondary school life..

-all these seems to be a thing of the past...-

baby kynan is a big boy!!
his cute laughters when he sees someone familiar
when he's having fun..
his big round eyes gazing into you..
they just made my day.

oh! there goes his first kiss!! [actually just getting a bit off a HUGE Forever Friends bear at his house!!]

when can we ever have those again...

***

i just realize some reasons for all these
maybe I'm thinking too much
but i could only hope for the best
keeping my fingers crossed..

-all's well will end well, i guess..-

old classmates

it had been long since I've got a good laugh with my old classmates
reminiscing about our past together
laughing at those silly lil' incidents
doing all these stupid stuff again

it really made my day
with all these jokes that they used to crack
the lame-ness
the joy
the everything

how i wish i could go back to those times
but it's never possible...
for we've all chosen a different route to take.

We've taken lots and lots of photos,
shall upload some of them when i gotten them
hope we can have one of these again soon..

let's just look to the future instead
and hope for the best

-when i need to be strong and independent, without...-

innocence

this song just keep playing in my head.
INNOCENCE by Avril Lavigne

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay

This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go awayI need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by


when's the need to differentiate between innocence and ignorance?

today was considered a happy day for me.
not sure why,
but it just makes me feel better.
when your good friend accompanys you,
having to carry a heavy lappie
going window shopping with you
to while your time away.
instead of you going home alone to emo again
I'm just so touched..

especially,
when your good friend cry with you,
when she shouldn't be at all affected.
when she just feels for you..
when she thinks for you..
when she knows know you better than anyone else..
i really appreciate all these, girl..

thanks for giving me such a wonderful friend
in place of all these pain caused..

things will get better..

-the need to stand strong, no matter what...-

post mortem

for those who had gotten all their results:

cheers for those who did relatively well
for those who did not,
try not to predict so much
think positive, stay optimistic.

the sun will always shine after the rain..
things will change for a better..

-it takes alot to cheer one up...-

emo~ing

the sun took a peek in the morning
soon it went to hiding behind the dark clouds.
and it stays gloomy for the rest of the day.

though pw is driving me nuts,
but the long chats,
during those draggy OP lessons,
with jia wen are nice and soothing..
at least i know that im not the only one out there..

time seemed to have slowed down.
but is it really so in reality??

not sure what made me walked home from the interchange
the long walk in solitude
listening to the music
oblivious to other noises
just observing the people in the neighbourhood
set me into deep thoughts.
pondering over stuffs..

the weather was kind enough
no sun,
yet no rain
enjoyed this

nevertheless
when my mood follows suit
it's not that nice afterall...

no matter how beautiful something is,
a crack on it will stay on it..
it'll never be gone..

-when i'm next to nothing..-

what am i to you

I just have to sudden urge to blog
although i have no idea what to mention
i'm feeling lousy
i'm feeling lost
give me some directions...

anyways, today's the 7th..

-what am i doing here, doing nothing..-

post promos

times when the tears run dry,
when we no longer have the strength to carry on
when it just gives me a sense of relief
and no longer the sense of satisfaction nor joy
when the chimes of rejoice no longer sounds

I'm just clueless as to what is happening
i just fear the worst to come
i dread the truth
but i would rather the truth

the route of escapade does not work
we cant keep running away from reality
face it!

-when all those hopes and thoughts turn out to be the opposite...-

20072007,
a special day for many of us
our first event to show us to the school cohort
the satisfaction we get after the whole event
and all these wont be possible without the organising comm
WELL DONE PEEPS!!

something else took place too
that is for me myself..
as for today,
rest and slept really well,
sort of making up for the many hours of beauty sleep ive missed out in the week.
woke up by myself, without any alarms.
and the feel of it was wonderful.
after which was MTPS.
all the normal stuff was spoken of
and i manage to see for myself the exact marks for each subject.
and the sentence i will always remember,
"although you nearly made it, but you still did not.."
thanks man..
i shall spare you guys with all the nitty gritty other than that...
after which went to the hosp to visit a friend
and dinner plus short shopping..

i've made some resolutions,
and i shall stick to it.
i must do well in promos
cos i want to the organisers of the events and not the participants [sound familiar anyone??]
and not disappoint anyone.
shall make the best out of whatever is given to me and stop complaining about stuff
that is really sth i must learn..

-with the focus and determination, i can...-

life

my life simply revolves round the same thing school work especially.
here's few learning points i've made tis week and it had really made an impact on me.
firstly is about tolerance, during GP lesson.
the importance of tolerance as a virtue..
it is a virtue or is does it imply being indifferent as well?
secondly is the eagle story we've watched during compass lesson.
the need of a change although it may be painful.
perhaps this is the harsh reality of life,
i've been trying to accepting these changes as well as making those changes.
hopefully they are for the better.
and lastly is the "last leg of the journey", another ppt that my CT showed us.
from it there's a line that goes something like this: " the changes you make today will affect your tomorro"
it really makes sense to me...


i guess i've just got the soft spot for such stuff..
all these make me ponder over many stuff.
especially makes me think what type of person i am.
a determined person? person who keeps procrastinating and speaking bad about others? blah blah blah
i guess we really have to reflect upon ourselves and make changes for the better.

today, watched Harry Potter movie at the last minute.
and it is seriously last minute that we ran to the cinema,
running across suntec making me feel so stupid..
so much of giving a good impression as we are representing council.
the movie was as usual cut shorter by quite a fair bit, and some parts slightly changed..
but it's still interesting in it's own ways..

and i still feel bad..really sorry to the person who understands this.
in the end, dinner was just me and miao..
i've no one to blame except myself.

i've been having many different moods and emotions this week. .
not sure is it from too much of those thinking processes
or it's just me...

-i'm alright the way life has been recently, the bitterness amongst those sweetness...-

results and hopes

feeling whatever that i can.
emotions are running high..
thoughts going wild
i cant picture what i want.
just the taste of sweet success.

results are coming back
and they are not showing any of that.
the need to work hard is obvious
but i cant seem to get myself to started.

i need to concentrate!!!

-the feel of it, but i just don't know when...-

messy me

council life is starting in full swing..
had a 3 hour++ meeting early in the morning.
which really drain me off my energy.
and did something retarded after that.

went home to sleep after the long long journey.
and these beauty hours should be compensating for my mid yrs exams ones..
after which, shopping again!!

metro @ tamp was a battlezone.
i stepped into it and regretted.
everything is in a mess and the throngs of people didn't make it any better.
left there empty-handed.
but instead went to Gio Jr to get a tee.
the designs are so cute!

i dont think i can enjoy so much once the hols are over.
anyway these few days should be e-learning days..
but i dont seems to be doing the right thing.
after the hols, having more Teachers' Day and Prom stuff..!
and im missing the recce for prom!
DANG!

-many different emotions setting in, i feel like giving it up...-

scents

my day was a simple and peaceful one until the end of the day,
when something occured and made me have such a strong urge to blog about it right away..

i was roughly 15 minutes from home,
at the interchange.
jus as i was entering my queue,
a person with a EX~~treme~ly strong scent entered before me.
my nose started to become watery, INSTANTANEOUSLY.. [and for your info, i do not have a SINGLE piece of tissue paper!]
although i've already slowed down my steps
and left a big gap between us.
but my nose was already being very obedient,
for not sneezing.
after a few minutes, another one entered the queue beside me,
and had about the same smell
that really makes my nose itch and waters.
the bus for the queue beside finally came and off went one.
and the initial person in front of me wanted to leave at first,
but remained in the queue when she saw that the bus was nearly full.

DANG!
by then, my nose could no longer take it.
and began sneezing non-stop!
my bus finally came and i took a seat far far away for that person.
but still my nose cant stop
and i even had to ask a stranger auntie beside me to spare me a tissue.

Morale of the Story:
Firstly, to stay away from people with such NICE scents, since i know who usually have them.
Secondly, to bring more tissue paper next time in case of emergency like this.

this is not the first time my nose had been so sensitive.
stinky sweat smell makes me wants to puke while this type makes me wanna SNEEZE!
so, this 2 group of people, try to stay away from me...
thanks a million..

i'm getting onto the momentum of studying.
at the isolated corner in the school which miao and me had chanced upon.
but my attention span is still a problem.
half a day and i'm restless.

the ride home in solitude makes me ponder..
ponder over many different things
should i have the patience,
or will it really be the history repeating itself?
even if it is not a reality, hint me...

-thoughts are flowing, doubts are coming...-

the feel

been reminded by someone to blog.. so here i am blogging!

the past few days are the same boring ones.
studying hard for exams when my heart are at the malls with all the sales
been out for the overnight studying quite a couple of times,
but i cant seem to cramp all the info into the pathetic brain of mine.
and i admit that i wanted to give up many times.
and till now, i'm seeing no point in studying so hard..

longing for more of the lil chats we had.
it held a lot of meaning for me.
but i'm still lost as to trust or not to..
the hopes went high and down they come again...
please give me some clues...

i've missed kEE cHEN and the rest!
KC is now in Penang having a whale of time.
and me here studying.
i MISSED her!!!
the joy, laughter and tears we shared will never be forgotten!
you are deeply missed, KEECHEN!!!

-studying hard equals to bright future or sweet escapade...

state of confusion

it had nearly been a month from my last blog, so, apologies peeps!

Progression into the JC life is happening very quickly.
with the many things going on,
time really flies.
Progress with friends are also going on fine.
now is nothing but Mid Years in everyone's mind..

Mugging is so irritating.
i cant stand the boring days studying through chapters,
which i had trouble understanding.
although the days are counting down,
the preparedness to fail is calming me down so much,
that i do not have the stress nor the motivitation to work hard.
no goals, no competition,
NO DIRECTION!

the many things going through my brains are making it worst.

-.State of Confusion. confused of what i really want...

many things had happened in these period of time when i disappeared.
the rally and elections ended, but what soon came after was the CTC and then investiture.
Many things were gained but some were lost in the process.
tears are shed over the sweat.
when friends are made, and people show their true selves.
nevertheless, some still seems to be hiding behind a facade.
but i believe they will soon reveal, especially after the seniors step down.

CTC was a terror one.
with impossibilities to beat,
jus like the life i had stepped into.
Overcoming each obstacles makes each and one of us stronger...

Investiture, the day which some people love and dread at the same time.
As it's the time we officially starts doing our duties,
but it's also the day the fours officially step down.
it's OKAY! we will still adhere to the principles you fours had passed to us!
fear not, as we will make the 5th SC shine!

as for friends..
i've really appreciated their understanding and love for me!
RIGHT KeeChen!!! and the many others.
had a dinner, or should it be supper?? after the M.X.
we chatted and wl and me doesn't wish to go home.
although we are alreadi like zombies,
cos of all those soccer cheering and tests driving us mad.
[randoms: WE WON WE WON!!!AND WE WILL BE THE LAST GROUP TO USE THE NATIONAL STADIUM! by mr max chong.]
back to topic..
we wanted to go to KC's house to sleepover and chat some more..
but the renowned SLEEPING DEITY is already half asleep half way through our dinner.

that's all people..
apologies for updating too slowly.
cos my com got some prob
seems to have some wierd stuff going on in it..

-the pace of life is what i had asked for...-

confusion

I've been feeling very different with different groups of people.

saturday afternoon, with keechen and pohyu to mas @ bras basah.

it is a conducive place to do tutorials,

as you see so many other people doing so.

practically the whole place is filled with students.

went home for dinner with my family at around 6 plus,

and bathed before leaving for Mac @ airport.

i stayed over there with some other nominess,

and did the sickening math tut for practically the whole night.

special thanks to Miao Ying.. she really rawks..

maybe you want to consider to be a tutor. =)

on sunday.

jie jie finally came over again with kynan.

[me and jie jie and kynan out shopping at Raffles City.]

and we went to Mac @ 539.

in case you still dont get it, im jus trying to stress that i've been to mac for umpteen times,

and the smell of the garlic chilli is driving me bonkers.

gossips and contraversials...

sacrifices: time spent with families and friends

and so many others...

these are all due to a single decision that i had taken.

had i really made a wrong decision??

i seriously have no idea.

i've sticked it through the bad times,

but will there be worst times?

and i believe there will be,

but the real question is will i be able to get over them.

tomorrow the results will be out,

and now, im here having second thoughts.

i serious~lly, tota~lly have no idea what am i doing!

-confusion overwhelmed me...!!! and i hate every second of it.-

exhaust took over me.
i felt so drained,
and there is the SLC for tomorrow morning.
a saturday morning for my sleep just given up like that.
i feel so like skipping it too.
but my conscience wont allow me to.
perhaps i will still pon it anyways.. hahaas

conflicts in the thoughts.

-we will get better...-

thoughts

thoughts and thoughts.

people worrying the same stuff.
friends are made and others may be not
fears and tears...
i know you are trying hard..
i will try hard my best too.

-i hope my worries are unfounded for...-

nahhh lalalala

im tired of my class jokes.
but im getting used to it lahh.
jus because i'm late on the same day as one of my classmate
and everything started from there..
ARRGGHH!

i wont leave you behind, KEECHEN!!
you won't too right..??
nothing will happen, really nothing...
cheeRios!
[aren't you touched.. =)) to have your name on a prestigious site!!]

-all's well, ends well...-

randoms randoms.

im so dumb!
i took the lift and missed the train.
and then... we were late.
i know it's our fault, but the teacher can't help pissing me off,
with her "indescrible-ee~gi~tating" face and voice, yelling away at us.
come on lahh, we are only abt 10 mins late, [pohyu, familiar??]
but because you guys locked us out, thus we were even later...
she made my monday blues come back!!

i cant be so unlucky right...
nothing should be done...
puhh~leease

-wonder if ignorance is bliss or is it the other way round...-

i feel hot..
I'm now having sunburns on my arms, totally burnt.
my face too!
i'm alright with getting darker, but just no extra freckles.
they really s*cks..
i've a feeling maybe i'm burnt in the brain as well.
my thoughts and my actions don't really goes well with one another.

had my burns cos i went wild wild wet today!
the joke of the day is when beesiang tried to enter the male changing room.
it isn't really her fault.
cos from the lockers,
the 1st toilet we saw were for the males,
and there signs were too extra~ordinary..
imagine for males the MUSCLE-bay
females- bikini whatever one..
haha!
but it is really hilarious when keechen and me realised and started screaming for her..
so people, beware when you guys go WWW.

movie marathon was fine.
but they screened the horror movie at the second slot.
so it screwed up my plan.
i thought they will screen it last,
and by then i will be deadbeat,
and in my lala~land.
but when they screened it,
i was like 1st hiding behind keechen,
then when her screams were too much, that they gives me creeps as well,
i went to find becky at the back of the hall.
when we really talk, while the rest of the school scream!
i dont get it, why some people.. especially girls who can watch and not scream,
and also those who wants to watch when they are afraid and they scream.
i seriously don't know what i want..
LOL.

i really hate my messy desk.
and also the person who messed it up.
i think i'm getting up early tomorrow to clear it.
and also a early breakfast, since i missed my dinner.
better grab some sleep before it's time for breakfast!!

sidenotes: -i fear and dread the results!! wishing everybody all the best!!
-PI needs to be up!! arggghhh!!!

-cries of agony, tears of pain. complains of frustrations, how could they...-

AHHHH!

my first ever time after the JAE that i had FUN with my class..
was queueing up for chicken rice alone,
when two guys from my class joined me..
and after a while, 3 more joined the queue by cutting in..
and soon the fun begins..
i realised im the only female amongst the rest of them [after sitting down, then i realised]
and they said i'm a guy too! i'm not that boyish you know..!!!
and they sorta had a rule that the person who finished last puts away all the utensils..
and so being the only girl, i just had to admit defeat..
and all the guys looked at me when i eat.. =)
plus all the jokes during the food makes me eat even slower..
soooo.., next time i know not to sit with them, unless im trained to gobble down my food! =))
me being the sporty me.. went on to put a whole stack of plates back! DANG...!

had a good nap, a long one..
it had been eons since i had one.
think i better enjoy it while i can.
cca starting tomorrow,
so i will know how crappy or nice it will be.

a good warm 45 minutes bath after a nice nap is what i really asked for.
washing away all my fatigue and stress, down into the drain.
it really really feel so good.
plus all the thinking time i have to myself..
when i'm running alone around the tracks as well.
thoughts just come tumbling to me..

perhaps it will be a few decades later when i will ever have a chance to do all those again... ...

ps: i've taken a liking to the word: "eeeyyerr!"

-handling life to the fullest...-

i may be strong

DANG! i just realised and recalled that
there is a consolidation exercise for econs tomorrow
i started it at 10 plus and...
i just went to e-learn it.
should be fine lahh, but i dont really get some parts though.
the lecturer is like chanting, or maybe singing lullabies to get me to sleep.
i survived and here i'm blogging!

i seems strong throughout the whole thing.
but after i came out and when i'm at home,
i pondered if i'm really that strong...
now the worries are onto the results.
that is like so common...

wishing good luck to those who yet to be interviewed, and those who are already waiting for results. =)

-once again i had to believe in you and me...-

council interview.

it is happening in less than a day time,
and all the worries accompanying me will be over.
no matter what the results will be,
i will be strong...

hopes are there for me.
thank you.

anti-climax: belated Happy April's Fool Day!!

-believing in oneself is the power...-

finallly!!

AHHH!!! i finally managed to "treat" my bloggy!
thought of the remedy on the bus, late in the night with my conked-out and fused-out brain.
it works pretty well after all. =)
i'm so afraid i've to delete the whole bloggy and start all over again.
pheww...
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here are some things i wanted to blog in the past few days:

feeling uber high today. no idea why.

perhaps it's due to the fact that i managed to remembered about half of the people from my cg. YES, names with the correct faces!

but it's still not as bonded as my previous cg used to be.

i will work hard on that...

i'm like feeling super duper moody for the past few days.

SUPER great thanks to the dumb ppl who assigned the houses to the classes.

[no, there isn't any tinge of sourness here...]

i bet many ppl will agree thoroughly with me my class turns out not bad.

but still the 1st 2 months ppl rawks to hell. or should it be heaven...

i slacked through the whole night!

it feels so good, man. decisions decisions..

shed me some light on how to solve them...

-i need not one hope but many for me to cling on... ...-

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that is for last tuesday.
i just typed and realised that i can't post it,
and the smart lil' brain of mine told me to save it in my com..

as for the rest of the week.
i've been feeling pretty much the same.
there aren't many things for me to be happy about.
and save the regrets for the cca.
great.. i entered SLC.
i thought it could have been more beneficial for me,
which volleyball won't allow me to have.
but seems like the fun volley gives me is more than enough..
no more harping, for i know it will not be useful.
life still goes on right...
i now seriously hope to do well..

i'm so sick of the word mugger..
everyone is like using the word everywhere and anywhere.
what's the great deal of doing your homework earlier.
you are also doing it..
pot calling the kettle black!

on fri sense of nostalgia rolled in into me.
when we say the little rhymes we like to say:

"round and round the garden,

went the teddy bear.

one step, two step, tickle under there!!"

the carefree times, with the innocent us
make me yearn to go back into the childhood period.
when our problems are like peanuts to us now...

my mood swings are pretty frequent for these 2 weeks.
tis is nothing to do with pms-ing.
and so you better beware and not step on my tail!

-i need the hopes, and they are running up high... ...-

testing again.. 1, 2, 3!!!

testing one two three=))

ahhh!!

i really and ser~iously feel like screaming out loud,
for no reason why.
but i just cant do it as it is already 2:22,
yeahh, into the night

it is another decision-making period.
the time when we choose our CCAs.
maybe i will be running for council,
but like what many people told me.
try to get pass the interview and decide further.
i've been pondering over it since last week,
and when i asked around,
it seems like many people wants to try for it to.
nevertheless, i will still try,
i guess, since it doesn't hurt to try.

it had been very long since we went to the airport to study.
since the dreaded-prepare-for-O's period.
went there and met many other MJCians[looks like magicians, right]
and i felt very silly.
kC need to get home asap, while wL, fiona and me needs dinner.
so we decided to bring bora to meet up with the rest of the MJCians.
but if i go with them, kC will have to go home alone...
and so... ...
me, being extremely silly,
went to take a sky train to T1 and another one back to T2 when i felt bad leaving her to go home on her own.
when i did that, i can still remember the lil' who took 8 trips of sky train,
to and fro just because i like the feeling of it.
but that was all in the past..

airport may serve an important purpose for other people,
but for youngsters like me..
it is a place where waves of thoughts and feelings of nostalgia came flooding back.
i really wish i could have the time to go there,
alone and allow all of them to come back to me.
and me slowly appreciating the feels of them.

-tears and fears, good riddance...-

yesterday

we finally went out.
yeshh, the FIVES!!
and bZ finally got a chance to see all of us.!

we are all going onto different paths of our lives,
entering a new chapter.
not sure if we can meet up as regular as we used to.
and the many differences we soon gonna face
may make it even more challenging.
i know i'm getting more and more emotional,
but they all nothing but truth.
and really, reality is harsh.

we went singing at a really cigarette-stinkup place.
and most of our nose began running all over.
[runny nose in case some slow people dun get it, hors kC] =P
after 3 hours there,
[with abt half of the time crazy-ing over wu zun aka quan in hana kimi]
we made our way there and began our normal routine.
first, neoprints
second, shopping
third, dinner at Sketches.
Lastly, a crazy arcade play time!!!

at Sketches, we were required to write our Designer's name for the pasta we had designed.
and some funny friend of mine went to write Rain~~neus,
for she love Rain.
and another one even wrote Chun~nie.
and guess who she adore..
yeshh!!! wu zun.
the funny part is when the waiter came with their pasta,
and he easily called my name,
and when he went on to theirs..
he was like grinning so widely,
cos he is at a loss... =))

today was pigging as well as slacking.
i ate and slept ate and slept..
not being really that useless,
i had also completed an exciting book.
Nothing Lasts Forever, by Sidney Sheldon.
maybe you guys should try it.

i think i better stop here and turn in for the night.
tomorrow, i'm having a tai-tai training.. =)
i'm going to pY's house for mahjong-ing!!!

-the fun may end just yet...-

mjc mass dance

mj will win the war... mj will win the war...

yeah, i know i am being random here.

jus some boring stuff,
fear tat i may bore you to death?
you may click the white cross in the red box now at the top right hand corner.. =)

had mass dance practice
and siew hui came backk!!!
hehe, we were like crazy.
and some other bad news too, though..

nothing much after that,
and on a sidenote..
i had gotten my voice back!!!
so happy!
hehe, better take good care of it,
for fear of losing it again.

-i had been through it and it seems to be coming all over again...-

my week

just some interesting parts of my week...

i reached school on monday at around 11+,
[cos' I'm sick and with a REAL mc]
feeling very groggy after the tonnes of medicine.
but upon meeting up with my cg,
they never fail to liven up me with their jokes.

[during the early lunch break, when the canteen is pretty empty]
the LAME cg wanted to play on the canteen vendor,
and it is really for the fun of it.
so everybody made their way to the drinks stall.
with the joker of the day, lois,
who went to get a Paddle Pop ice cream and said this to the auntie:
"auntie, ice cream hen leng, ke yi pang we heat up mah??"
the innocent auntie not sure playing along with us or real innocent, replied:
"HEAT LE BU SHI HUI MELT DIAO??"
and we went off laughing our asses off...

not wanting to end the fun just like that,
benjy went up to the auntie agian and took a banana.
"auntie, ke yi pang we zha xiang jiao mah?"
and auntie replied again:
"wei she mo yao zha??"
"yin wei wo yao chi goreng pisang!"

and we happily enjoyed our lunch break,
with more jokes cracked amongst ourselves.
like "auntie, vitasoy li mian you mei you soil??"
or going up to the drinks stall to ask for fried rice..
and many different others...

something else that i had learnt in the week.
when you can't speak, your ears work extremely well.
and if you attend camp with practically no voice,
it is quite torturous when you can't scream and get hyped up with the rest.
when you can only do silent cheers..
yeahh, it's real sad...

additional points to add to the joy..
callisto got 1st for the CNY celebrations,
and well, the supposedly "best" house did not get second either.. =)
no offence to anybody okayys..
and also, our class won thrid for the chinese "exploring Meridian" project!

Lastly... if anyone has any idea on what we can do for our identity during orientation 2,
please help me by suggesting ideas in the tagg.
thankies!! (".)

-swaying to the rhythm of my life, return me the sound to it...-

the same word

the nervousness is creeping into me.
come on, who would not feel the same way,
perhaps some come later..
but one will definitely feel the really really mixed feelings.

many people from our CG felt similar yesterday.
jus the type of "MIXED" feeling that really cant be put into words.
and so all of us just went high yesterday.
our tutors are also nice enough,
to spare us, and allowed us to make noise.

the best part of the time is when we make our classroom "automated"
it is really very hilarious when almost everyone,
yes almost everyone, except for some loners, cooperated.
we make the class room's lightings, curtains, screen obey to our claps
and it is real nice.
i definitely hope to be in this CG for long.
but things usually dont happen the way you want them to be.
nevertheless, just hope people will go back even after taking the results
to spend the last few days together before getting our posting.
so people, come school okay, and have fun together!!!

me and keechen gave them each a flower,
wishing them all the best.
and so yesterday our class looks so bright and smiley,
with those pretty little flowers.
and we also finally took class photos with those little ones.
wait till i get the photos den i shall show them.

dedicated to my dearies CG mates!!!
i love you peeps!!!
they really make my stay in MJ a wonder!
and the peeps are as goes: aundrea, jacintha, ENORMOuS iris, kit mun, pei yi, karen WOO, joanne, mel lee, cheryl, yumin, ah loy aka pei wen, HOI shan, hui fen, jia'EN, ling mei mei, ong KAYY CEEE, a man DA, louis louis AKA lois, belinda, nicholas, L aka jaryl, xun xiang, little BEN, shorty MARCUS, big GERALD, NOISY wai khang.

special thanks to our tutors and CT too: BELOVED ms june TAN, FUNKY ms sharon LIM, FAST ms WANG, FUN-LOVING ms erin TAN, DEMURE ms LIM pei wen, "LAUGH-Y" ms LIM, SERIOUS ms GILL

GREAT THANKS TO YOU GUYS FOR MAKING MY DAYS SO ENJOYABLE!!!

1st day of jc life

attended mjc orientation, and had fun.
fun onli came in the later part of the day.
the morning was a lil boring with the admin stuff to settle
i was so tired out with all the running and screaming around e new sch compound.
tomorrow will be another even more tiring day around the east side!
woots..! I'm looking forward to it.
i learned more cheers and mass dances and they were really nice.. hees!
quite difficult to master though, for 1 of the mass dance.

tomorrow is only approx 5 minutes away
and it is my special day.
im stepping out of my year of sweet sixteen,
when some of my friends just entered them
i seriously dont think it is fast like some people think it is,
and some times it irritates me.
there will be a bare minimum amount of people born on every single day.

dont wish to spoil my last 5 minutes of 16 years old.. =)
tataz, and i gotta go!

-a whole day of fun, with the joy achieved... -