scents

my day was a simple and peaceful one until the end of the day,
when something occured and made me have such a strong urge to blog about it right away..

i was roughly 15 minutes from home,
at the interchange.
jus as i was entering my queue,
a person with a EX~~treme~ly strong scent entered before me.
my nose started to become watery, INSTANTANEOUSLY.. [and for your info, i do not have a SINGLE piece of tissue paper!]
although i've already slowed down my steps
and left a big gap between us.
but my nose was already being very obedient,
for not sneezing.
after a few minutes, another one entered the queue beside me,
and had about the same smell
that really makes my nose itch and waters.
the bus for the queue beside finally came and off went one.
and the initial person in front of me wanted to leave at first,
but remained in the queue when she saw that the bus was nearly full.

DANG!
by then, my nose could no longer take it.
and began sneezing non-stop!
my bus finally came and i took a seat far far away for that person.
but still my nose cant stop
and i even had to ask a stranger auntie beside me to spare me a tissue.

Morale of the Story:
Firstly, to stay away from people with such NICE scents, since i know who usually have them.
Secondly, to bring more tissue paper next time in case of emergency like this.

this is not the first time my nose had been so sensitive.
stinky sweat smell makes me wants to puke while this type makes me wanna SNEEZE!
so, this 2 group of people, try to stay away from me...
thanks a million..

i'm getting onto the momentum of studying.
at the isolated corner in the school which miao and me had chanced upon.
but my attention span is still a problem.
half a day and i'm restless.

the ride home in solitude makes me ponder..
ponder over many different things
should i have the patience,
or will it really be the history repeating itself?
even if it is not a reality, hint me...

-thoughts are flowing, doubts are coming...-

the feel

been reminded by someone to blog.. so here i am blogging!

the past few days are the same boring ones.
studying hard for exams when my heart are at the malls with all the sales
been out for the overnight studying quite a couple of times,
but i cant seem to cramp all the info into the pathetic brain of mine.
and i admit that i wanted to give up many times.
and till now, i'm seeing no point in studying so hard..

longing for more of the lil chats we had.
it held a lot of meaning for me.
but i'm still lost as to trust or not to..
the hopes went high and down they come again...
please give me some clues...

i've missed kEE cHEN and the rest!
KC is now in Penang having a whale of time.
and me here studying.
i MISSED her!!!
the joy, laughter and tears we shared will never be forgotten!
you are deeply missed, KEECHEN!!!

-studying hard equals to bright future or sweet escapade...

state of confusion

it had nearly been a month from my last blog, so, apologies peeps!

Progression into the JC life is happening very quickly.
with the many things going on,
time really flies.
Progress with friends are also going on fine.
now is nothing but Mid Years in everyone's mind..

Mugging is so irritating.
i cant stand the boring days studying through chapters,
which i had trouble understanding.
although the days are counting down,
the preparedness to fail is calming me down so much,
that i do not have the stress nor the motivitation to work hard.
no goals, no competition,
NO DIRECTION!

the many things going through my brains are making it worst.

-.State of Confusion. confused of what i really want...

many things had happened in these period of time when i disappeared.
the rally and elections ended, but what soon came after was the CTC and then investiture.
Many things were gained but some were lost in the process.
tears are shed over the sweat.
when friends are made, and people show their true selves.
nevertheless, some still seems to be hiding behind a facade.
but i believe they will soon reveal, especially after the seniors step down.

CTC was a terror one.
with impossibilities to beat,
jus like the life i had stepped into.
Overcoming each obstacles makes each and one of us stronger...

Investiture, the day which some people love and dread at the same time.
As it's the time we officially starts doing our duties,
but it's also the day the fours officially step down.
it's OKAY! we will still adhere to the principles you fours had passed to us!
fear not, as we will make the 5th SC shine!

as for friends..
i've really appreciated their understanding and love for me!
RIGHT KeeChen!!! and the many others.
had a dinner, or should it be supper?? after the M.X.
we chatted and wl and me doesn't wish to go home.
although we are alreadi like zombies,
cos of all those soccer cheering and tests driving us mad.
[randoms: WE WON WE WON!!!AND WE WILL BE THE LAST GROUP TO USE THE NATIONAL STADIUM! by mr max chong.]
back to topic..
we wanted to go to KC's house to sleepover and chat some more..
but the renowned SLEEPING DEITY is already half asleep half way through our dinner.

that's all people..
apologies for updating too slowly.
cos my com got some prob
seems to have some wierd stuff going on in it..

-the pace of life is what i had asked for...-

confusion

I've been feeling very different with different groups of people.

saturday afternoon, with keechen and pohyu to mas @ bras basah.

it is a conducive place to do tutorials,

as you see so many other people doing so.

practically the whole place is filled with students.

went home for dinner with my family at around 6 plus,

and bathed before leaving for Mac @ airport.

i stayed over there with some other nominess,

and did the sickening math tut for practically the whole night.

special thanks to Miao Ying.. she really rawks..

maybe you want to consider to be a tutor. =)

on sunday.

jie jie finally came over again with kynan.

[me and jie jie and kynan out shopping at Raffles City.]

and we went to Mac @ 539.

in case you still dont get it, im jus trying to stress that i've been to mac for umpteen times,

and the smell of the garlic chilli is driving me bonkers.

gossips and contraversials...

sacrifices: time spent with families and friends

and so many others...

these are all due to a single decision that i had taken.

had i really made a wrong decision??

i seriously have no idea.

i've sticked it through the bad times,

but will there be worst times?

and i believe there will be,

but the real question is will i be able to get over them.

tomorrow the results will be out,

and now, im here having second thoughts.

i serious~lly, tota~lly have no idea what am i doing!

-confusion overwhelmed me...!!! and i hate every second of it.-

exhaust took over me.
i felt so drained,
and there is the SLC for tomorrow morning.
a saturday morning for my sleep just given up like that.
i feel so like skipping it too.
but my conscience wont allow me to.
perhaps i will still pon it anyways.. hahaas

conflicts in the thoughts.

-we will get better...-

thoughts

thoughts and thoughts.

people worrying the same stuff.
friends are made and others may be not
fears and tears...
i know you are trying hard..
i will try hard my best too.

-i hope my worries are unfounded for...-

nahhh lalalala

im tired of my class jokes.
but im getting used to it lahh.
jus because i'm late on the same day as one of my classmate
and everything started from there..
ARRGGHH!

i wont leave you behind, KEECHEN!!
you won't too right..??
nothing will happen, really nothing...
cheeRios!
[aren't you touched.. =)) to have your name on a prestigious site!!]

-all's well, ends well...-

randoms randoms.

im so dumb!
i took the lift and missed the train.
and then... we were late.
i know it's our fault, but the teacher can't help pissing me off,
with her "indescrible-ee~gi~tating" face and voice, yelling away at us.
come on lahh, we are only abt 10 mins late, [pohyu, familiar??]
but because you guys locked us out, thus we were even later...
she made my monday blues come back!!

i cant be so unlucky right...
nothing should be done...
puhh~leease

-wonder if ignorance is bliss or is it the other way round...-

i feel hot..
I'm now having sunburns on my arms, totally burnt.
my face too!
i'm alright with getting darker, but just no extra freckles.
they really s*cks..
i've a feeling maybe i'm burnt in the brain as well.
my thoughts and my actions don't really goes well with one another.

had my burns cos i went wild wild wet today!
the joke of the day is when beesiang tried to enter the male changing room.
it isn't really her fault.
cos from the lockers,
the 1st toilet we saw were for the males,
and there signs were too extra~ordinary..
imagine for males the MUSCLE-bay
females- bikini whatever one..
haha!
but it is really hilarious when keechen and me realised and started screaming for her..
so people, beware when you guys go WWW.

movie marathon was fine.
but they screened the horror movie at the second slot.
so it screwed up my plan.
i thought they will screen it last,
and by then i will be deadbeat,
and in my lala~land.
but when they screened it,
i was like 1st hiding behind keechen,
then when her screams were too much, that they gives me creeps as well,
i went to find becky at the back of the hall.
when we really talk, while the rest of the school scream!
i dont get it, why some people.. especially girls who can watch and not scream,
and also those who wants to watch when they are afraid and they scream.
i seriously don't know what i want..
LOL.

i really hate my messy desk.
and also the person who messed it up.
i think i'm getting up early tomorrow to clear it.
and also a early breakfast, since i missed my dinner.
better grab some sleep before it's time for breakfast!!

sidenotes: -i fear and dread the results!! wishing everybody all the best!!
-PI needs to be up!! arggghhh!!!

-cries of agony, tears of pain. complains of frustrations, how could they...-

AHHHH!

my first ever time after the JAE that i had FUN with my class..
was queueing up for chicken rice alone,
when two guys from my class joined me..
and after a while, 3 more joined the queue by cutting in..
and soon the fun begins..
i realised im the only female amongst the rest of them [after sitting down, then i realised]
and they said i'm a guy too! i'm not that boyish you know..!!!
and they sorta had a rule that the person who finished last puts away all the utensils..
and so being the only girl, i just had to admit defeat..
and all the guys looked at me when i eat.. =)
plus all the jokes during the food makes me eat even slower..
soooo.., next time i know not to sit with them, unless im trained to gobble down my food! =))
me being the sporty me.. went on to put a whole stack of plates back! DANG...!

had a good nap, a long one..
it had been eons since i had one.
think i better enjoy it while i can.
cca starting tomorrow,
so i will know how crappy or nice it will be.

a good warm 45 minutes bath after a nice nap is what i really asked for.
washing away all my fatigue and stress, down into the drain.
it really really feel so good.
plus all the thinking time i have to myself..
when i'm running alone around the tracks as well.
thoughts just come tumbling to me..

perhaps it will be a few decades later when i will ever have a chance to do all those again... ...

ps: i've taken a liking to the word: "eeeyyerr!"

-handling life to the fullest...-

i may be strong

DANG! i just realised and recalled that
there is a consolidation exercise for econs tomorrow
i started it at 10 plus and...
i just went to e-learn it.
should be fine lahh, but i dont really get some parts though.
the lecturer is like chanting, or maybe singing lullabies to get me to sleep.
i survived and here i'm blogging!

i seems strong throughout the whole thing.
but after i came out and when i'm at home,
i pondered if i'm really that strong...
now the worries are onto the results.
that is like so common...

wishing good luck to those who yet to be interviewed, and those who are already waiting for results. =)

-once again i had to believe in you and me...-

council interview.

it is happening in less than a day time,
and all the worries accompanying me will be over.
no matter what the results will be,
i will be strong...

hopes are there for me.
thank you.

anti-climax: belated Happy April's Fool Day!!

-believing in oneself is the power...-

finallly!!

AHHH!!! i finally managed to "treat" my bloggy!
thought of the remedy on the bus, late in the night with my conked-out and fused-out brain.
it works pretty well after all. =)
i'm so afraid i've to delete the whole bloggy and start all over again.
pheww...
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here are some things i wanted to blog in the past few days:

feeling uber high today. no idea why.

perhaps it's due to the fact that i managed to remembered about half of the people from my cg. YES, names with the correct faces!

but it's still not as bonded as my previous cg used to be.

i will work hard on that...

i'm like feeling super duper moody for the past few days.

SUPER great thanks to the dumb ppl who assigned the houses to the classes.

[no, there isn't any tinge of sourness here...]

i bet many ppl will agree thoroughly with me my class turns out not bad.

but still the 1st 2 months ppl rawks to hell. or should it be heaven...

i slacked through the whole night!

it feels so good, man. decisions decisions..

shed me some light on how to solve them...

-i need not one hope but many for me to cling on... ...-

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that is for last tuesday.
i just typed and realised that i can't post it,
and the smart lil' brain of mine told me to save it in my com..

as for the rest of the week.
i've been feeling pretty much the same.
there aren't many things for me to be happy about.
and save the regrets for the cca.
great.. i entered SLC.
i thought it could have been more beneficial for me,
which volleyball won't allow me to have.
but seems like the fun volley gives me is more than enough..
no more harping, for i know it will not be useful.
life still goes on right...
i now seriously hope to do well..

i'm so sick of the word mugger..
everyone is like using the word everywhere and anywhere.
what's the great deal of doing your homework earlier.
you are also doing it..
pot calling the kettle black!

on fri sense of nostalgia rolled in into me.
when we say the little rhymes we like to say:

"round and round the garden,

went the teddy bear.

one step, two step, tickle under there!!"

the carefree times, with the innocent us
make me yearn to go back into the childhood period.
when our problems are like peanuts to us now...

my mood swings are pretty frequent for these 2 weeks.
tis is nothing to do with pms-ing.
and so you better beware and not step on my tail!

-i need the hopes, and they are running up high... ...-

testing again.. 1, 2, 3!!!

testing one two three=))

ahhh!!

i really and ser~iously feel like screaming out loud,
for no reason why.
but i just cant do it as it is already 2:22,
yeahh, into the night

it is another decision-making period.
the time when we choose our CCAs.
maybe i will be running for council,
but like what many people told me.
try to get pass the interview and decide further.
i've been pondering over it since last week,
and when i asked around,
it seems like many people wants to try for it to.
nevertheless, i will still try,
i guess, since it doesn't hurt to try.

it had been very long since we went to the airport to study.
since the dreaded-prepare-for-O's period.
went there and met many other MJCians[looks like magicians, right]
and i felt very silly.
kC need to get home asap, while wL, fiona and me needs dinner.
so we decided to bring bora to meet up with the rest of the MJCians.
but if i go with them, kC will have to go home alone...
and so... ...
me, being extremely silly,
went to take a sky train to T1 and another one back to T2 when i felt bad leaving her to go home on her own.
when i did that, i can still remember the lil' who took 8 trips of sky train,
to and fro just because i like the feeling of it.
but that was all in the past..

airport may serve an important purpose for other people,
but for youngsters like me..
it is a place where waves of thoughts and feelings of nostalgia came flooding back.
i really wish i could have the time to go there,
alone and allow all of them to come back to me.
and me slowly appreciating the feels of them.

-tears and fears, good riddance...-

yesterday

we finally went out.
yeshh, the FIVES!!
and bZ finally got a chance to see all of us.!

we are all going onto different paths of our lives,
entering a new chapter.
not sure if we can meet up as regular as we used to.
and the many differences we soon gonna face
may make it even more challenging.
i know i'm getting more and more emotional,
but they all nothing but truth.
and really, reality is harsh.

we went singing at a really cigarette-stinkup place.
and most of our nose began running all over.
[runny nose in case some slow people dun get it, hors kC] =P
after 3 hours there,
[with abt half of the time crazy-ing over wu zun aka quan in hana kimi]
we made our way there and began our normal routine.
first, neoprints
second, shopping
third, dinner at Sketches.
Lastly, a crazy arcade play time!!!

at Sketches, we were required to write our Designer's name for the pasta we had designed.
and some funny friend of mine went to write Rain~~neus,
for she love Rain.
and another one even wrote Chun~nie.
and guess who she adore..
yeshh!!! wu zun.
the funny part is when the waiter came with their pasta,
and he easily called my name,
and when he went on to theirs..
he was like grinning so widely,
cos he is at a loss... =))

today was pigging as well as slacking.
i ate and slept ate and slept..
not being really that useless,
i had also completed an exciting book.
Nothing Lasts Forever, by Sidney Sheldon.
maybe you guys should try it.

i think i better stop here and turn in for the night.
tomorrow, i'm having a tai-tai training.. =)
i'm going to pY's house for mahjong-ing!!!

-the fun may end just yet...-

mjc mass dance

mj will win the war... mj will win the war...

yeah, i know i am being random here.

jus some boring stuff,
fear tat i may bore you to death?
you may click the white cross in the red box now at the top right hand corner.. =)

had mass dance practice
and siew hui came backk!!!
hehe, we were like crazy.
and some other bad news too, though..

nothing much after that,
and on a sidenote..
i had gotten my voice back!!!
so happy!
hehe, better take good care of it,
for fear of losing it again.

-i had been through it and it seems to be coming all over again...-

my week

just some interesting parts of my week...

i reached school on monday at around 11+,
[cos' I'm sick and with a REAL mc]
feeling very groggy after the tonnes of medicine.
but upon meeting up with my cg,
they never fail to liven up me with their jokes.

[during the early lunch break, when the canteen is pretty empty]
the LAME cg wanted to play on the canteen vendor,
and it is really for the fun of it.
so everybody made their way to the drinks stall.
with the joker of the day, lois,
who went to get a Paddle Pop ice cream and said this to the auntie:
"auntie, ice cream hen leng, ke yi pang we heat up mah??"
the innocent auntie not sure playing along with us or real innocent, replied:
"HEAT LE BU SHI HUI MELT DIAO??"
and we went off laughing our asses off...

not wanting to end the fun just like that,
benjy went up to the auntie agian and took a banana.
"auntie, ke yi pang we zha xiang jiao mah?"
and auntie replied again:
"wei she mo yao zha??"
"yin wei wo yao chi goreng pisang!"

and we happily enjoyed our lunch break,
with more jokes cracked amongst ourselves.
like "auntie, vitasoy li mian you mei you soil??"
or going up to the drinks stall to ask for fried rice..
and many different others...

something else that i had learnt in the week.
when you can't speak, your ears work extremely well.
and if you attend camp with practically no voice,
it is quite torturous when you can't scream and get hyped up with the rest.
when you can only do silent cheers..
yeahh, it's real sad...

additional points to add to the joy..
callisto got 1st for the CNY celebrations,
and well, the supposedly "best" house did not get second either.. =)
no offence to anybody okayys..
and also, our class won thrid for the chinese "exploring Meridian" project!

Lastly... if anyone has any idea on what we can do for our identity during orientation 2,
please help me by suggesting ideas in the tagg.
thankies!! (".)

-swaying to the rhythm of my life, return me the sound to it...-