5 sistas!! sheesh, I'm running late for work! but cant resist to put up this pretty photo=)) jiejie, yeshh, i saw them already!! more to come when im really free=))
the dark tunnel. it's up to you what you want to focus on. the darkness or the light at the end of it...
some gross update first=) i was eatingsome steamed yam cake [which is supposedly healthier in my dad's opinion as compared to the black and spicy carrot cake] with the brownish red sauce all over it. when i finally stop eating, i started coughing. and out came a thick and uberly gross green phlegm PLUS reddish stuff all over it. got a shock at first when i thought what illness had i gotten. then i suddenly remembered it's just the dumb sauce! alright,enough of the gross update.. im just being silly.
yeahh,just wanted to say that im sick=( and it's really irritating! the headache that never stops spinning the throat that is always sore and the nose which is always stuck so i can only like feel the texture of food going down, and all tasted like mucus and phlegm to me=(( stop it, kelly! ALRIGHT!i will really stop that..
orientation coming up at MJ! wheeee! that's like a council's biggest event or sth like that. and im going back on sat!but not at night=( sobs.. no campfire for me.that's like totally sucky. and for once, i feel that my job sucks. saturday night, and im working..boohoooo!!! dearest FIVES, please go back in the afternoon alright.. like pretty please with a cherry on top=) help to spread, and ask those peeps to go back in the afternoon, JK! i know you have the loudest voice=P so scream and they will know!hahaaa..
yoohoo! finally met up with my old mama! she's like having some office job which she can dress up anyway she wants no restrictions. aint that totally awesome? watched Rachel's getting married. it's not the chick flick type of plotand that's like toally what ive expected. but it turns out totally different, and it's really heavy in content instead. it's the first time i caught a movie in cineleisure. yeahhh, i know im ancient. there's like gaming stuffs and arcade on level 9??? just found out yesterday=) the highest level i've been to is the kbox one. thereafter is just level 2 and level 2. sighhss, kelly..
the day before, i went to TP. to help may's with her project or something. it's really cool being her guest on her radio programme. and answer questions into the mic and everything=) and everything is like the real studio..! nice experience=)) though it's a bit scary at first. being on air and stuffs.. thanks May=)
i have the sudden urge to do something to my hair. like something extreme. cut it real short? purple streaks? curl it? straighten it? bangs? i dont know.. make it just a passing phase,cos im afraid i will regret it.. weekends gonna be pretty busy and tired. work till 4am on friday's night or sat morning, and sat afternoon going back schoolthen night work till 4am again. before going all the way to sis place=) kynan boy turning TWO! that's like very fast! yoohoo...! and i can see him again=)) plus the way he calls "yiyiiiii..."makes my heart melts!
Monday, February 02, 2009
i think i've gibberished alot alot of rubbish in my previous post. too many things kept inside, now that it's out (in a subtle way) i can blog more happily=))
i want to shop! im like craving for hundred and one things in the world! goshh, gotta stop this, if not i will spend all the money that i intend to save.
wanna get a new wallet. the turquoise purse is still waiting for me at accessorize=) get a camera=) like that i can take picture of everything that i see cos everything leaves my sight far to fast for my brain to capture into memories PLUS, i saw a lady customer at my workplace carrying a Polaroid camera! uber cute can, the photo comes out instantly! like derrr...! but it's so huge and bulky=(( not practical at all! still wanna get a bag, blah blah blahhh... and the list never ends.. note to myself not to get any more clothes. cos i cant get much chance to wear them! everyday just that shit colour shirt will do=))
life been full of ups and downs surprises or shocks? im not sure either. could only know that we could then grow our of all these difficulties. just got to accept it.
ive been down with flu=(( it always happen after i manage to get a super long sleep. is it that my theory really holds? that when you sleep more, you provide more time for the virus to build up? i hope it's not this way. if not i will make myself sleep as little as possible!
furthermore, i'll still be going for the tuition work PLUS my normal work. sheeshh. hope my flu virus will disappear, like how people disappear from my life. as easy as it seems..
many friends around me had been quitting their jobs. not sure why is it just typical of our generation or something? then perhaps I'm ancient. or that it's just in my zhu family genes. the never say never attitude. these genes are bad in a way that it makes you see more people leaving, because you'll be the last to leave=( i'll then start comparing work with school. school no doubt is fun with so many friends with you and not constantly changing. but the HOMEwork that one had gotta do, makes no difference to the long hours of work plus all my cca hours, i think work is like a shorter duration. lol.. all in all, they are all the same. just depends on how your mentality slants towards.. soooo... it's still the doing of your brains, the power of mankind and the reason why the world is like this..
ps: i dislike blogs for it's superficiality and the fact that it only shows the side of the blogger whom he/she wants others to know. so perhaps you guys can stop patronising my blog cos perhaps you're thinking this way of me=)
ive eaten a combined meal of dinner, breakfast and lunch. yeah, which means after ytd Brunch. didnt have any proper meal. had to work on 1st day of cny, 2nd as well and today's finally my off day. work's tough. only with those people then it's fun. but things seems to be changing. more regulations, more new management people. and more unhappiness as well.
oh wells, work will never be fun and nice..
yeah, my proper meal which i just had is a slightly burnt omelette and maggie mee. abit "jerluc" after a while. but cant find other nicer food already=(( need to start reading my basic theory! test in the evening. i hope it will go well.. people who passed says it's easy, people who failed says it's tough. so i shall know for myself soon.. *fingers crossed!*
DECLARED: I'm gonna spam a long post, so dont blame me for updating so slowly. you are just supposed to read it slowly=P one day one para, perhaps?
im now into my last teenage year! shall live it it proudly and happily=) and let those precious memories stay.. the first official job. when i get real money into my bank account and not money notes in envelopes! real money into my CPF account! whahaa, sound so grownup=)
some pretty ladies were pretty and nice! and celebrated my bday twice! once on my actual day, and another combined with the lucky and pretty lady, ah bi=) i feel so blessed to have this group of friends with me around though we've have met each other so so long ago. remember those days when we were all fat and chubby and short having hamsters, staying school till so late, meeting at our famous 7eleven store when all of us will be late, our first escape outing, first holiday trip[at least for me] to korea, first time playing with bugis fountain at our age, first time playing the kids playground in the arcade at our last legal age, christmas countdowns, new year countdown and many many fond memories! i hope there will be many more to come=)) many more first times with you guys and many many more fun moments with you! just like what ive told ling in her card, the more obstacles we overcome, the longer will be our "expiry date" of our friendship will be extended=)) and the day when we acted like tai tais will soon come ture and real mahjong session will come true us being godmothers and stuffs! in out big big houses, linked side by side! these were so creative on our part=))
more about my bday, we ate at Manhattan fish market. it's really noisy and crowded there, like a fish market.. never mind that, cos with those surrounding noise, we wont get any strange stares when our table make too much noise like we always do.. after that was CLUBBING! i drank slightly more=)) still dislike the alcohol bitter taste, but like the warm feeling in the throat=)) for photos, please click on keechen's link=)
celebrated with my family too! at Yummy crab! really yummy=)) and they specially ordered a bowl of shark's fins for me.. i've been yearning for it, since prom's one was horrible.. kynan boy is still as adorable as ever.. he will definitely make many girls fall for him with his big dark eyes and dimple smile=)
work. work was still as fun as ever.. we've changed Shokudu to "Siao-kudu"=)) cos we were really like shouting at each other for fun eating uber big mochi! and laughing like crazy.. this is definitely a good experience for job, especially after a bad experience. maybe the best even.. and meeting cute guys there! and some familiar faces.. [good or bad, im confused too..] whahahahaa!! twice somemore!! hope many many more times to come..! just like what my manager said, "Relationship will come at the most unexpected time" i shall wait for the unexpected=P
gotta go bathe already=) got another short stint at Kumon tuition centres it's really part time, as in 3 hours in the afternoon.. wanna earn more more and more money! then wont be so restricted and unhappy=((
-living my 19th year on this very planet as happy as i can remember!-
PS: goshh, i think im really in love with dimples and toothy grin=P
since i cant sleep, i shall do some photo post=)) my fun days after the BIG A's!
went back for OGL camp=)) missyBITES! missing quekish and me=))
syc gathering. ehh, i look lost.. the three goddess=)) the days we've spent shopping for prom stuffs=)) spending time to catch up with jo! from brunei=)
sending her off... =(( camwhoring continues...
xmas eve steamboat! missing ah bee and may=(( my xmas prezzies from them! wl's bday treat! by the wonderful chefS!
yum seng!! cheers! our homecook treat!my first clubbing experience, zouk=)) dearest girl who accompanied me=)) class=y gathering=)) goshhh, my eye bags!! !@$$#@! those who went! dumb dumb HaHa's look! oooopps! my hand blocked your face!
the censored words! lol!! ice cream chef! after the super long walk from astons! sunrise!! after sleepover at jon's place.. the uncompleted movie!! background is nice, but we're abit dark yeahh... tilt your head or tilt your com! =P mahjong session at py's place the super spastic shots! ROUND ONE! on the way to singing after shopping at vivo=) ROUND TWO!!!
taaddaaaass..! that's all for today.. this is just a SUMMARY=)) i shall go sleep before i go out for the awaiting of the next year to come! yesshh, and it's countdown at my workplace again!
ps: feel free to grab these pretty pics=) cos i realised i didnt send some of them!
it's gonna be a new year soon.. and i think im not the type of person who will keep to my new year resolutions, so better save my brain juice to create them=))
my new working life has just begun and i think i've enjoyed myself so far.. the process of being a "junior", picking up skills and knowledge, knowing more friends and many more.. of course there's like tonnes of bad things too irregular sleeping hours, meal times are constantly changing everyday, having my dinner at like 10plusplus, eye bags and so many more.. told ya it tonnes alr=) tried the closing hours alr! it's rather fun yet mundane! cos need to wipe like every single thing..
i think my bday will be alright after all, a dear friend of mine changed her shifts with mine=)) thanks, girl! [it's keechen, in case you're abit slow..] but then... i need to think how to work till 4am the day before and reach there 12 the next day.. hmm.. that's a difficult task...
last year my bday eve that night was spent at rach's house preparing for 3rd day of orientation always remember that surprise, when someone cheated me to bathe and sleep first! and the actual day was at white sands macs eating our super late dinner/supper spent with my friends
this year, mine will be spent at my new workplace. different styles every year, not bad if i were to be more optimistic. budden... my friends cant celebrate it with me le.. never mind, i shall be a big adult! hahaas, my dearest bday shall be like any other normal day!
complain and complain.. and the day will never end!
ps: all along, when my fonts are purple, those will be my thoughts. if it's black, then i'm really telling you what had happened blah blah blah..
my life has been busy for the past few days. worked for a really short while, 3 days job and i quitted sound really like a loser. but anyway, gotten another one. though not my desired sort of job but i dont have much choice right? not it's the jobs that are choosing the owners and not the other way round
my life just revolves around people people and more people. i dont exactly dislike this fact. but i dislike the fact that human beings are just plain confusing and complicated.
i just started reading a book about a guy who has some syndrome and he dont exactly understands how human emotions work. maybe i will soon be like him. and in my own word, i will only have that few smileys to represent the many emotions life would then be pretty much easier=)
i dont like all the sweet talkings. i dont like all the "i knows..." i dont like everything that is "oh, it's so REAL!!" and it's even more difficult to know how your decades-long friends are feeling, cos she will know better how to hide it from you. and i think i'm getting tired of it.. now i truly understand, "Absence makes the heart fonder.."
-you will never know what a person is thinking deep down inside...-
Friday, December 12, 2008
sometimes getting frustrated doesn't help. so what's the point of doing so? i just cant comprehend what you are doing.. i wont be irritated so easily.
KEECHEN-mama gonna be back sooonnn!! lols.. i miss you alright! after seeing you on consecutive days for 2 weeks plus before prom and after which not a single day=(( you must be so honoured! cos im stuck in deciding some stuffs, and would gladly need some of you assistance=)) anyways, that lucky girl must be enjoying herself in HK!! while we are all stuck here in the warm and stuffy or rainy and gloomy SG=((
argghh.. my class-y friends are on the way to bedok again.. not gonna be late AGAIN!! gosshhhh!!!
im so full.. ate my "shin pao mian jia dan"=)) [watch goong and you will know what i mean] my fave korean noodle during exam period when im in love with cooking up my own lunch. i ate lots of the noodle, finished up all, cos i threw 1/3 of them before cooking it! hahaa.. still alot to me cos it's like 2/3 down my stomach now stomach feel so bloated that i cant bathe! and im gonna be late for the vivo trip with pohpoh=((
i think i can really eat alot now. like my appetite is alot bigger! rather than exam weeks, when i felt so sick eating. or should i say the energy wasted to chew the food. but now... im eating lotsa unhealthy stuff! enough of my nonsense=))
had s205 bbq at sean's place ytd. was pretty fun, cos most of the people im alright being around with are around plus i started the fire! with help from old man tan! [dont's say i didnt mention!] lol.. and ah wong didn't come!!!! =((( he lousy lousy pok.. hehee, kidding.. cos he's busy.. not like us=))
arggg..!! late le late le.. to be continued!! plus photos alright!
boo!! im finally alone at home on a weekday afternoon! it had been awhile since i've accompanied kai for half the day=) cos im going out again later. for my class bbq. and im gonna miss my mum's home-cooked dinner! when im mugging hard, i dread eating her dinner. but now i wish i could have it.. cos outside food is making me constipated and stuff.. boohooo...! shall say my old granny story=))) cos im superBORED at home! photos next time!
the past few weeks have been fulfilling. it's like the days that many of us yearn for. and now we are like a lil sick of these. had sleepover at py's house, mahjong session as well=)) went back for OGL camp, bbq with my secondary school peeps, with a turnout of 8 ppl! and most of them are from mjc except 2. wakakaas.. it's still enjoyable nevertheless. after that bbq, my throat nearly died and im having another bbq again. it's not going to help my constipation as well...
oh yeahh, went to my mum's childcare to help them with the concert! they are like superduper adorable!! i sticked to a 3 yr old class. and there's a girl who's really so pretty with fair skin, big eyes and bangs at the bottom of her hair. she's so lively and adorable! remembering all her steps and smiling widely.. hopes BIGBOYkynan will have his concert too! and he shall be dancing in the first row too!
im now kynan's BESTfriend when he's at our place. hahaas, next best choice after his mummy-ia.. that's how he calls her. and we are all his yiyiiii-ia.. im a proud yiyi=)) but tired as well.. lols..
needa go pom pom alr! tataaass!!
-why is it that it's so much easier to spot a pretty girl than a nice-looking guy???=((-
ps: - i still dont feel like going for the camp=((
- once i wrote that two alphabet "ps" i still remembered i owe someone a book! -im now using facebook more ofter=)) after my nearest pohpoh helped me clear the junk! and hopefully it will un-hang it=))
whhaaaa!! my legs are on the verge of breaking. been shopping like non-stop! yesterday was out with my mum =) went to city hall and suntec =)) and gotten myself a bag and a pair of cute and sweet shoes! shopped till my bones nearly cracked.
today continued my shopping expedition. today was with KC and WL, and also grace and jw [unexpectedly *winks!!*] walked like the entire bugis thrice! bugis junction, bugis street, HAJI LANE, OG and we covered some places like many MANY times!
haji lane was horrible. cos we were like walking under the sweltering hot sun and half way through me and wl could not stand it and we applied sun block in the middle out of no where. firstly, we missed the entire Haji Lane. but we managed to chance onto some customes shop! tell you, those shops actually exist! there's like millions of customes in one of the shop! we had lots of fun there! cos it's really unbelievable, all the things you find there! some are like fairytales and blah blah blahh... but for our prom.... ehhh, like a no link nehh!
when we finally found your beloved haji lane. it's those shop houses where you need to climb stairs up to the shop itself. annndddd... my legs are........ PLUS the things are like super overpriced. not that the quality are fantastic either.. not sure why either?? tourists places of interest of is it the rentals? anyway, it's just not suitable for students like us..
now i have like super-well toned legs.. my butt muscles ache all the way down to the bones. sobbss.. but all these beats studying! so im continuing my spree with lil kynan boy, jie jie and mummy tmr! whhheeee!! which means im training my arm muscles tomorrow too!! by carrying the cute lil boy, who's really a big boy! im gonna be his best friend again this weekend! lol!
tata! shall go oink oink.. and recuperate some energy for my first yoga lesson! with kc and wl! whheeeee!!!
REWIND: actually i've been playing since after chem. naughty me.. hahaa, i was like stuck on my fanatic craze on taylor swift. saw her Lovestory music video on my friend's bloggie. i dont even know it's her, until kc told me. and i just thought she's pretty in there. real pretty, with her hair and gown. and i just started that craze.. somemore, this was the day before chem paper 1.. after the paper, i began looking for her videos! blah blah blahhh... she looks the best in the lovestory mv i think cos i still like the princess-y look. shall have that style for prom..! whahahaaa... im nutss..
and the following saturday, i went to tamp to shop and dinner with my mum. and....... i bought my prom dress! i was very extremely fickle minded. went into the shop thrice dragging my mum and out newly bought HUMONGOUS pillows and i finally bought it after the assurance from my dearest wl and kc!
just cross my fingers and pray that no other of my schoolmates gonna buy that cos i bought it from our school's frequent hangout shopping mall, tm :(( didnt expect myself to get anything from there but still... expect the unexpected, i guess and you feel double the joy!
-im still waiting for more of such unexpected-ness...-
whheeeee!! back here officially! my post exam activities started off with eating and shopping. and it nearly killed my slender long legs and back! whaaa..
went out with my class girls. pretty sweet time out, cos it's my first time with so many of the girls! 9 of us tog.. hahaas. anyways, cher recommended us a shop selling beads and handicraft stuff. i didn't know of it's existence all along! it's brilliant! and im off with my artistic flair!!
BEFORE: a typical head band
AFTER: with the beads, amethyst and black:)
UP CLOSE: too bad my "good hp cam" is super duper clear! duhhh!!
went off to the library with jia wen to look at more of the handicrafts book. and we've got more and more ideas and went to got more materials. starting my artistic project no II. i love this type of day! but my savings running out... :(( no money no shopping no going out no FUN no JOY!!!
it's alright, shall spend wisely... bless me with the skills please...!
-i went pass that very place with the great sense of nostalgic...-
Lonely fear lights up the sky Can't help but wonder why You're so far away
There you had to take a stand In someone else's land Life can be so strange
I wish we never had to choose, To either win or lose, That we could find a way (We could find a way) But I won't turn my back again, (Turn my back again) Your honor I'll defend So hurry home and till then
Stand tall, stand proud Voices that care are crying out loud And when you close your eyes tonight, Feel in your heart how our love burns bright
I'm not here to justify the cause Or to count all the loss That's all been done before.
I just can't let you feel alone When there's so much love at home We're sending out to you
All the courage that you've known The bravery you've shown Clearly lights the way
We pray! To make the future bright To make the wrong things right Right or wrong, we're all praying you remain strong That's why we're all here and singing along
Stand tall, stand proud Voices that care are crying out loud And when you close your eyes tonight, Know in your heart how our love burns bright
Voices that care are crying out loud And when you close your eyes tonight, Feel in your heart how our love burns bright
You are the voice You are the light
Stand tall, stand proud Voices that care are crying out loud And when you close your eyes tonight, Feel in your heart how our love burns bright
Stand tall, stand proud Voices that care are crying out loud And when you close your eyes tonight, Feel in your heart how our love burns bright
You are the voice And the guiding light Feel in your heart how our love burns bright
im so touched.. this preferred subject of mine is officially over... now in me will just be the memories of the "good" failing days which many of us had. but i think we've finally realised they're all useful...
life had been "wow, so wonderful.." like certainly wonderful. living in my lalaLAND for more than 8 hours everyday. of course it's wonderful. the guilt after that never fails to last more than 2 hours. dangg.. bet our dearest ah wong gonna come after me soon.
the journey seems to be really seriously ending soon. how i wish i can hide myself in my room, and really study. but now i can sleep like anywhere.. tables, cold floor... hate it.
the many regrets doesnt help. the certs really seem like some shit-paper. so what it's so nice when my grades are like bleahhh.. enough of complaints.
yesterday was Farewell Assembly. some really boring parts but some really highly entertaing ones. i really say BYE to all of you. wonder what i will turn out to be in these last few weeks of M-I-A. shall be like that...
tonight my emotions are going haywire. felt that im super-mean during tuition, sheez, but that's not my nature kays.. after which it just went down down and way down. been pretty long since i last felt like this. having a long bus journey on a single deck doesnt help either when i dont have any privacy [i know we arent supposed to have privacy on a PUBLIC bus] dumb emo songs blasting into my ear drums may someday i will self-disintergrate and disappear from this world un-noticeably.. no pain for myself and those around me but it just seems so impossible.. im really thinking too much i guess. but i just cant help it. hormones, stress and greater workload... what else can i do except to let them all out alone on the bus. da*n the strangers who saw me was totally disastrous then.. luckily there's no cute guys! LOL.. well, i hate it.. why cant i just do what i think. life is in a great mess now..
i really wish it would pass quickly yet i dread this mega huge exams to be here so soon. dang! what do i really want???
5 sistas!!
