aar

wasn't really feeling right to blog now
was having too many emotions at one go
too many thoughts, all messed up.

the family that we always talked about
those words of concern really seems wierd coming out from the person
it touched me in a way
and also made me thought about so many other things
the long long morning jog in the morning
when we just encouraged one another although we ourselves are already tired...

reading fuzzy blog make me think even deeper
maybe things are not as perfect as it seems
i'm too blinded i guess
by all the fun i'm enjoying

perhaps we didn't make much sense of our status,
Students' Council
for the students,
yet we are having fun
is this our purpose? our vision?
all at the beginning
during CTC
all the drillings...

this walk of my life had certainly made me value people
i thank this new found family
at least it makes me not feel alone at times

changing the tone :)
greatly missed are my old mama and tooopiiiddd nuzie!
the hip old mama is off for OBS camp
miss all the bitings [sounds wrong..!]
miss all her nonsense
the way she helps me think when im just being unfair
the courage that she taught me to have
esp throwing face in the public!
toopid nuzie!
dont dwell too much while at home
you will soon join us
and we can enjoy during the camp!
as least e-learning rocks my socks!!!!

*****

the times alone

when i pondered
when i began to realised
maybe it's me who's expecting too much
i guess i didn't gave you the chance to speak
or is it that you dont wish to?
im just as confused as ever
perhaps im just in denial...
but still i'm afraid..

- i just cant help but fear...-