painnn

shaggg..
so tired
went to PLUSH for recce
managed to settle much stuff
and was so tired,

but i still cant get a good rest at home tmr,
need to go for camp rehearsal from morning to afternoon [luckily it was cut short]
den after that got class bbq!
finally my class got something planned for ourselves!!
and 3 teachers are going!
ms WONG yu teng, ms karen NG, mr randall CHA
so sweet of them!!
too bad ms judy TAN cant make it..
well, hope we will have lotsa fun tog! [even though there is a "BIG presence"!!]

how i wish my life next year will be the same as this year
no changes to the people in my life
nor the things happening around
i fear changes....
whenwilltheawkardsilencegoingtoend?whenwillwebelikethepast?shalli justwaitorforget it...ireallydon'tunderstandwhy. idontknowwhatwrong haveidonetodeserveallthese.. undertheignoranceofsomanypeople. youguyswillreallyneverknowwhaislingeringbeneaththesurface.. mytearswillsoonrundryforyou,whenmyfeelingsbecomenumbaswell... i'mchangingmyself, whenifearchanges.. pullmeoutofthis.. howtosalvageall these, icantdothesealonewithoutyourefforts... ifthosewhoarenotinvoledbutseethis, pleasejustkeepyourmouthshut! sometimesithurtsenough...

- i wish for all these to be like the past...-