the ugly world

some things that were bothering me for the past few days. i can seriously find faults in whatever is around me. contentment never seems to be in the minds of people in this world of ours. competition turns things ugly. superficial people makes things even uglier. pretty face or not, i dont like it. i hate it when you know people come to you with a purpose. or should i say with a motive. it's just so ugly ugly and more ugliness. even if the world is filled with all the pretty faces, it will be useless. criticism is just bringing someone down so that you will seem better? bullshit to me.. i just think confidence can bring the beauty out in you, but it also bring the other side of you if you cross the line. pretty or ugly it's not for us to decide, and to me, i think criticisms should only be made straight in someone's face if you're perfect. and i guess nobody are... yeahh, and maybe the whole world is just an illusion. those around you may not be there afterall...

i dont know what im getting to.
decided to stop there.


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sometimes im questioning myself, if it is really not going to happen, or is it that i dont wish to give in to it? im thinking on the basis of FRIENDS. will it be enough for a really close group of friends around you? afterall, they always say that it's the quality that counts. i dont know. the feeling of you treating someone as such, but yet those efforts are not reciprocated. it doesnt feel nice at all. the different expectations of mine of others and others of mine, is just so starkly different. the quote, "Do unto what you want others to do unto you." it just a whole lot of crap. nothing works in this way i think.. yeahh, maybe cause human is all crap and hence the world is as well.


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"the world is a beautiful place, until Man came into it..."

i just realise my ipod has some nice songs. been nuts over songs from Dido. the lyrics relate to my life maybe? yeahh, and the advice to stay away, i shall heed them soon. follow my heart and do what i deem is right. doesnt that means im like living on an island with no one to care about? why care when people doesnt..

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back to my normal life and not those thoughts of mine. brought my doggie down for a walk just now. the park was having some National Day celebration. it's so amusing when the songs they sing are all but those we learn when we are kids. Count on me Singapore etc etc.. but yet every year we have new national day songs? the purpose of it? the novelty is it?

recently i like blasting music into my ears. it brings me back to my own world, oblivious to those around me, and i observe others from my world. it's a cool and nice thing to do. maybe you guys should try it too. and maybe when you go back into the shared world of ours, you will do less of the silly things that makes you laugh when you are observing...