distraught!

think there never fail to be moments when i breakdown during each and every sems.

this time it's the last mid-term, and i really cant take it.

the house is so so noisy, and i cant comprehend what the solution is talking about):

felt so helpless all a sudden. totally clueless as to who i can ask for help, who i can rely on.

all those around me can only tell me to relax and not be so stressed up.

but what i need is real help.

guess relaxing can help by making me stop thinking about it for that moment. and hopefully when i get back to it, i will be enlightened.

tsktsk. wishful thinking girl.

i kept telling myself that whatever i need to know is in my notes. but sometimes i feel like admitting to myself that, its all be a way of deceit.

never mindd. whatever i cant do, others cant do it too. the principle of bell curve.

but still. feels so pek chek.

sometimes i really wish that i have a hall or some quiet room. some really conducive place. some where that i can be as and when i like. libraries are awesome. but sch lib is too far for studying at night, bedok lib closes at 10): have to make do with whatever ive got, and adaptable. i kept telling myself that its the mind that allows the disturbances in. im right, righttt(:

so much brain power needed! needed for my mugging, needed for the control of unnecessary noises. oh please, cant you guys just shut up):

feeling so unhappy now, and yet on a side note, ive done with 3AUs! today completed the test. so long since i last written long essay style answers. felt rather satisfied with myself. hope i can get at least an A- for it pleasssee. need that to pull my thermoDIE grade upppppp!!

-a very distraught mind.-