SPEAK UP your thoughts!

astro done with. seriously love for the subject is so much not enough to. more of the responsibility of having to it. i attended lectures faithfully, listening as well cos i thought the course was interesting. however, studying for it is a total nightmare. had sucha hard time memorizing so much facts! shall see my test grade before deciding if i should SU it. then i can focus on my cores.

had sucha painful ride back just now. wasted time to get some survey forms. ultra thick ones. for foreigners working here (whoever can help me, please drop me a text!!). its for some canvassing event that UOC had taken up. really dumb stuff. back to my painful ride home. firstly, waited ultra long before the NTU shuttle service came. i had just "nice" missed the bus. although the feeling isnt nice at all. and i was first in line waiting for like uberly long before the v v packed bus came. AND DIDNT STOP! that was alright, when the 2nd pack bus came along. managed to get up the bus and there's some tiongs trying to cut queue behind me. and i had accidentally stepped on her foot. since she's like right behind, trying to squeeze up the bus. felt the sudden satisfaction. however, it was so short lived. continued my way to pioneer station. its like the 2nd last station on the green line, AND all the seats were taken up!! totallllyyy! not my day can! my normal fave seat is gone. and the train started getting all stuffy and i was feeling really grouchy and lousy. not forgetting the fact that ive only gotten 4ish hours of sleep, and survived on caffeine and red bull for the day.

how sucky can my day be man. and i kept thinking why i ended up going back to at peak hours. its all cos of the damn survey!! seriousslllyy. wanna pull out from the UOC main comm. getting on my nerves, the commitment and meetings and canvassing shit that ive got to do. not like i went to interview for the biz mag role and wanted to be in it. seriously. i went back to pageant comm firstly cos i thought ive got no other commitment, 1 is alright. and also i enjoyed the company of the pageant people. but now, it seems to have gotten me into deeper shit. some shit that i don even know that people im working with nor am i happy with what im doing. i just feel like pulling out. seriouslllyyyy. i will set my mind to it, and have a good talk with my BOSS! hahaha! its either ive got some prejudice against how the heads of the main comm people works or sth. their cult rules doesnt work on me, im so sorry to say that! hah!

set my mind to it and say it!

i felt like a loser at times. will you people practise altruistic punishment? telling some one to clear her plates when everyone supposed to put away their used cutleries after eating. telling someone that she should queue up although she didnt cut your queue but some one else's? i need to speak my mind rather than curse and swear inside me. seriously. hahaa. bad for my mind and soul! lol..

-why oh why..-