too bad it's Strawberry Ripple and not some chocolate-y ice cream
dumb dumb jo had put the perception that chocolate will make me feel happier after consumption.
i'm supposed to be doing the whole day of work,
since yesterday i've wasted my entire precious day away after sacrificing Movie Marathon.
but could not get myself started.
hence i'm here blogging away..
two dumb things happened to me yesterday.
i've got hit by the stupid 7-eleven doors
when it tried to close on me.
where's the sensor?!?!?!
i disgraced myself infront of so many kids when i saw a lizard...!
dumb dumb dumb~~!!!
i feel myself being so cynical
that whenever someone said something or something happen,
i will tend to look towards the negative side
and probe deeply and thoughts of criticism will soon surface.
i cant help it but feel that it's all because of whatever we've went through.
i no longer feel the FAMILY feeling that we used to feel.
when we are eating, i just wanted to leave rather badly
board on a long bus trip and never see or communicate with any of them
but then when i'm with dumb dumb jo again,
i felt rather different.
think it's depressing to have something like that to happen.
both to me and those i've these feelings to..
but i just could not help it.
the hugs that we gave one another.
the significance of it...
i was feeling happy and laughing away when with dumb jo and her friend, royston
well, thanks to that girl and royston
with the funny conversations and us looking at both girls and guys around at PS
really made my day.
plus the ice cream for my dinner made it better.
cheer up, royston :)
a smile is a frown from another perspective.
keep smiling!
went to try out the CIP they're doing.
teaching pri 3 kids.
one of the girls was like saying every math question is difficult and kept asking for my help.
but she could finish english rather quickly cos she seems to like it.
this made me feel that i seems to be like her when i dislike the subject,
i will just skip every questions and wait for teachers to go through during tutorials.
hmmm, maybe i should reflect..
i needa get myself into the lifestyle which i needed to get in. before it's too late..
i must learn how to stand firm and not be wavered by others..
since the world doesn't stop for me,
i will not be hindered by whatever it has for me.
someone said to me:
"it's no use getting out of it, cos at the end of the day, you'll still be thrown back in.."
i've believed this so so much.
but i dont know how to help her though i sometimes wanted so much to.
maybe it's just that i cant bring myself to.
*****
i dislike the feeling when i know where it's going towards.
i run away cos i know it's the best way...
-when i could stand tall and strong and nothing could bring me down...-
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