rumblings

shall start off my post with fazall's quote
as what i've promised him,
i will mention it here

"without love, the world will have less people crying..
but, without love, the world will also have less people smiling..."

we were just having our lunch after out meeting
and started this random topic
discussing about relationships, girls and guys..
it was certainly random
especially with the company whom i rarely talk to about these topics
or is it never before..
it certainly set me thinking more
and the caring barney just keep asking me to tell
somethings are better left unspoken, fuzzy..
cos comfort wont be able to resolve them..

*****

i read through my old posts, my rumblingsINmyBLACKbook, ....
my other side of my life
things are still pretty much the same
when no initiative is taken
i'm still thinking if time will really heal things that reasons cant..
i doubt it can
it will only allow people to forget about it
i dont want it that way
where is the happy ending...
happily ever after seems so far away...

i'm still waiting for the promises to be fulfilled
that date is coming again
another month is gone...
nothing much is improved
the sweetbitterness is here yet again
when the tears i shed for you,
when the trust i've placed in you
are all gone
probably with the tears that were long ago dried up...
i wish i can hate you
but i cant bring myself to do it
i bet you are now...

-i wish i wish.. i wish you've never existed in my life...-