projectCIRCLE
managed to share quite a couple of the things that had been going through my mind for the couple of months.
but dont think i've said everything on my mind
dont think i've managed to get my point across as what i think it is.
emotions get the better of me
though the night before i told myself not to
the previous night,
i walked home all the way from the interchange
and snacked all the junk food i could find.
there were really many thoughts running through my mind
and i'm really wondering the purpose of project circle
cos after what had happened the previous day.
i dont think anyone noticed
but too bad i did and i had bad bad thoughts once again
i dont wish to tell anyone
cos it will just change the impression of people in other's mind.
cos i MUST stick to what i said
since i detest people not doing it.
SLO camp was over.
i'm relieved im not in a group with many other people from other places
though we used to be the type of oh-from-mj friends
but after the camp i think i've managed to know some of them better.
think it's really enjoyable being with them for the entire workshop
our SUNFLOWER that we like to form,
that the girls are afraid to form........
the jokes we share
the laughter that constanly there..
and the snoozes we took here and there.
the games that we always LOSE!
hahhaass
thanks guys!
SPOONWHERE???
to the one i've just chatted with:
i'm glad to have talked to you when we went for the class gathering.
i chose to open up with you then,
cos i can really see the GOOD friend in you.
you should know how few i see in.
you may not be the GREATEST, but you are WORTHY of my mention..
cos you people really mean a significance to me
and i'm thankful for the true concern you have in me
and not just the normal kay-pohness
though you are usually not so sensitive in crowds
but i appreciate your sensitiveness when you are alone.
i also appreciate all your same sentiments what you shared with me.
you've also made me realised that i've made someone happy
by just a simple act.
i will try to understand people better
cos perceptions may not be true..
i thank you for being there for me at the certain times when i feel like giving up
like my math
when i felt like giving up that chapter that's really taking up too much of my limited time
but i see you there putting in your heart and soul in it.
and i just continued.
it make me see the results.
i shall not give up on math so easily already..
just now wanted to say this... but couldn't get it out...
hahhaas..
so went the whole round...
i guess it's really hard to say all these in person
thus i've just acknowledged you here...
the special friendship we share
after all it's the comfort when we talked
and the faith i found in you.
hope it will always be so...
to the 1st person i've opened up to in COUNCIL:
i so afraid i've lost you.
i seldom see you around
or should it be i seldom talked to you like we used to do.
i miss the time at breakwaters, though it's only once...
i miss those times when we chatted till we miss the last train back
i miss the time when i can just randomly call you and say i've got nothing to do
and i will just pop by your house or go shopping thereafter
though it's like far far away from mine...
when you pulled me back into council
i remembered you say to me:
"if you want me to pull you back, just tell me. cos i will just do it.."
now maybe it's my turn to ask you this...
cos i miss your presence so..
when can you be in the sharing mood...?
you will always be my non-fake friend,
cos i know i'm always that in front of you...
i feel like giving you a tight fat hug now...
till then we have such good times again...
there's no point in forcing me to say things.
cos i will not say things just to brings us to be better.
sometimes things are just to be left as it is.
it will be better that way
when the time runs short
and our journey comes to an end..
cos i believed in that if we TRULY wish to be closer,
we need to go through the bad times between one another
it's only through the hard time when we learn how to appreciate one another
this will only allow our friendshipS to become stronger.
since we dont have the time and energy to go through anymore bad times
i think things should just be like it is now.
cos i dont wish to leave off at a bad ending...
it's the quality that i want
not the quantity..
sorry, it's just my beliefs that i strictly believed in...
the image of my utopia seem so far far out of my reach....
-the many thoughts that i have no idea how to push them out of my mind...-
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