randdoommsss

feeling rotten now.
as in sick
like totally..
my runaway nose, throat that is as sore as anything and the dumb freaking headache
and my chest give me a weird tight feeling
ahhhh!
what had the block test gotten me into.
[and after i finished the above few lines in like less then 2 minutes, i've sneezed 4 times alr. dang! dang! dang!]

and all these really made me regretted going school
should have just stayed home and rest well to prepare for friday's outing
btu still, i keep telling myself that council life after exams will be great.
cos everyone will be so relaxed and stuffs, rather then me staying home and moaning to myself.
that's what i assumed.
well, things turned out just as "GREAT"

despite the many many things that happened,
i think i've talked to some people
that really make my day at least a fair bit.
i've learnt of the need to forgive and also i also learn the need to step up and overcome stuffs, rather then running away from problems.
but hope these can keep me going for the next 40 days.
and not be OUTWEIGHED by other effects..
i've also learnt how to speak up
and not really feel shy about it.
and maybe the way to put things in a nicer words for constructive feedback.
hahaa, think i really learnt lots today.
and i realise these's many others feeling the same way as me.
the superficial stuffs and so many many perceptions of others.
welllll, must look more to the positive side..
so shall not mention the negative!!!!
PUSH THOSE THOUGHTS OUT!!

yeahhs, i love Mac's kid's meal!
hahaa.. got a funny looking toy which i feel so dumb bringing it home.
so ugly and soooo NOT pretty.
but jo and old mama all have it!
dearie old mama! dont think too much about your purse lahh
it's safe in school for the like 3 to 4 days?!?!?!

2 main important points i've learnt today is not to SELF-PITY and also laughing off is a good way to destress!!
cos self-pity will only make it worst.
and laughing it off will help you to think more clearly...

shall go and sleep real soon
and get back all the beauty sleep i need.
going sentosa with my that old old primary school friends!!!
feel so proud of myself in maintaining this special friendship.
like finally!!!
i've missed out quite a few of out rare outings!
and now finally!!!
i could really relax, be stress free and not be bothered by anything.
maybe i shall go to the extent of switching off my handphone.
lalalalalaaaaa...
i feel so grateful to them.
for always forgiving me for the reasons i always can make it..
love all of yaaa!!

not only them.
today supposed to go Sky of Love with my class clique
but so sad i cant go!!!
cos of some NICE meeting that i really love to go
lols.
now i need to find another free time and people to watch with me.
angry arhhh
sacrifice for nothing.
i think im really bad.
they will like go out so frequently, and im always the only one who cant make it
and the only time i can make it is when all the other 6 PURPOSELY arrange and plan every hour getting out of school and me getting back to school.
so sweet right..
hahaa.. i know you all very nice,
but so sorry okayyyss.
and jw, the so sweet part, dont bhb arhhh!
hahaas

okays i think i seriously should go and sleep
feeling so drunk and drowsy after the medicine.


*****

went out to some dumb place
and see the whole group of people.
i must feel alright
cos there's really really nothing
bleahhhsss..

-sometimes it just takes the time and the courage...-

PS: i just realised this is an super uberly RANDOM post!! talking about anything and everything under the sun!!