dearies

I just have a sudden urge to give a BIG HUG to all my dearies.
my dearest family:
my dad, mom, karen, kat, kris, karolyn AND kaiser!
and of course to my dearest friends:
kc, bs, wl, bz, py.
*HUGZ!!!*

smart-looking dad enjoying the family portraits..



pretty mom alert!!!


we with the flamboyant sunflowers.


the zhu sistas unite!!


















mom & dad -to-be, with my unseen nephew

















trying to pose with some renowned people huh..?



















the three young ones















MR AH-DOG DOG preparing for shower time!!!
















[will try to post the real family portrait soon...]




FUN-LOVING AND 'CHANTEK' GALS ON THE LOOSE!!!
trying to save space, yeahh??

having a crazy photoshoot. oops! we "are not" supposed to be studying...

ps: sorry for not getting you guys' permission to show these photos, cos you all are too irresistable... =P

[i had no idea how to do the headings properly.. just match them yourself..]

-the love i get from them is forever...-

preparation

recently i just do no have much mood to blog.
thanks to a blur sis of mine,
who accidentally switched off the whole computer.
and for the past half an hour the blog that i typed vanished.
YES, into thin air...
that was a couple of days back.
it just took my mood away.

been preparing myself for the trip.
i had also helped kc and bz.
ain't i sweet.
helped them fold and roll their clothes like some mummy out there.
well, that's what friends are for. yeahh??

i now have 10 strawberries on both my hands.
they are on my nails.
apparently to my sis they do not look nice.
cos they are supposed to look cute la..
it looks rather bright and outstanding
but it's alright.
b'cos im gonna wear gloves in KOREA.
and all will be covered up.

next 8 days:
going to KOREA, south korea.
yeah, i just cant rest down.
too excited about the trip.
may we have lots of fun and
of course safe return! =))
[promise i will at least blog a lil about the trip]

now for the past:
in my deleted blog I'm supposed to write about Kynan.
kynan is the "it".
yeahh. Isn't it great??
i went with my sis for her checkup,
and i also saw her doing the ultrasound.
it was such a sweet-tingling feeling
when i saw the heart thumping away.
i now really feel him,
coming into my hands in a few more months to come.
I'm definitely waiting for that day to come.
After the checkup,
we went shopping at Orchard.
it was surely a fun trip
der, cos i bought my school bag.
it' a sling one.
my present from my sis.
so sweet yeah, my mom-to-be sis.
hehe...
at least now her blood glucose level is fine,
what a relief...

-a fun and enriching journey of my life...-

PAE

i had already done the admission for the three-month course.
finally put the mind-boggling stuff down.
had been wondering if i should put mjc or tjc first,
guess what is the outcome?
i put tjc first!
it was kinda risky cos i have no idea how i will fare in my O's.
i might get kick out if i did badly for O's.
but if i were to put mjc first,
they have high retain rates,
vice versa, it's still bad.

with all the different influence,
i think there are more ppl for tjc.
just heck care
the most i cant get into tjc and mjc,
i will jus end up in tpjc, hopefully...
jus give me some schools in the east and i'll be rather please.
but definitly no VJC, for no particular reason.

here are my choices:
1st Temasek
2nd Meridian
3rd Tampines
4th Anderson
5th St Andrews
the last two is placed jus to fill up the space =))

-hopes are high, and may not dashed will they be...-

shopping day 2

today went for another whole day of shopping
after yesterday's short one.
bought loads of stuff,
preparing myself for the flight to Korea.
therefore bought the necessities to be used there.
ranging from lip care to many others.
also, i bought a pair of ladies slippers and shoes to be shared with sis.
there after, we went for V8 for dinner and they were really sumptuous.

i had never appreciate my sistas more than ever.
today 1 gave me advice on travelling,
another on fashion.
they had really contributed to the depth in me
im not complimenting myself, but them.
really great thanks to them =))
and of course,
to mum. for making all these possible.

O's are over and am making new plans for the near future.
the fun holidays will be over before we know.
on monday, we will be getting forms to fill in our decisions for the 3-month
and i'm probably going to change to TJC.
sorry kC and wL for changing my mind.
i assure you tat i will be back there if i really cant take it
and even if we are in different schools,
you guys will definitely be in my heart
not forgetting the other two affectionate friends,
bS and bZ.
you four had definitely brighten up my life!
i hope i had made your lives more enjoyable too.

we had changed from the us[sec 1 i think] in first pic to the ones[sec 4] in the second print.

there are changes in us, but not our friendship.

well, friends are for life!!!

-to soar to greater heights with them...-

de parture

4e1'06 last bbq had jus ended.
joys came, followed by tears.
making new aquantainces and parting with them,
are just part and parcel of life.
just gotta accept it, and move on.
Also, all the best for you peeps, in your future endeavours!!!
REMEMBER!
"We gonna be far apart,
But close at heart."
.Thought by BS.

enough for now,
think you guys can get more about this from kc's blog.

-4e1'06 peeps, you guys will be deeply missed...-

wish and want

FIRSTLY!!!
my wish will soon be fulfilled. just a week, and I'm sure i can survive through it pretty well! =)

SECONDLY!!!
my new want: CREATIVE ZEN V PLUS
loving it more and more... ...

-get it over, get it here...-

it's jus another beginning

i slacked away the afternoon.
yeahh, away from the books.
it had been so long since i saw the crowds and shops,
and yep, im missing all of them.

went to Bedok polyclinic with mum for her checkup
and noticed the change.
it is supposedly to change for the better,
and i guess it did.
in terms of technology, yeahh;
but i dont think it did make it more user-friendly
instead less.
well, most elderlys are illiterate and although it is in our 4 main languages,
some could not read either of them
so what's the point.
you cant possibly write dialects right.
ending it; still takes the stand that the green and red buttons type is still better.

all my friends blogs are about the around-the-corner O's.
some hope it may come fast end fast,
some wish they could have more time to prepare.
i tink im the first type and thinks that just be done with it fast.
Im really getting sick of all those books and the "trillion" facts embedded inside.
so what is the purpose of exams?
to cramp our brain cells with those facts?
to stress us?
to show our potential and weakness?
i have not a slightest idea,
jus know that i have to study.

Forget it, it will be over before i know
and i really wish that in future,
when i look back,
i will smile on my past...

Dedication to all my PALS:
Study hard and you can achieve all your dreamss!!!! so why are you still looking?? GO study! =))

-yes, I can do it, and the millions of things to accomplish after which...-

a tribute

leaving makes people sad,
no matter if you are close or not.
yes, absence does makes one's heart fonder.

tuned to the radio previous night,
heard it is her last show tis morning.
so waking up early in the morn,
to catch her for the last time.

her words and tones always makes one yearn for more.
did not really go and appreciate it in the past,
and now regreting for more.

well, we cant help it but can make do with it.
just wish you all the best for the change.
Will miss the programme tat you always hosted!

-changes are for the better...-

Kim Jeong Hoon

today went bugis with sis and mom,
though for a while, but the short retail therapy is real enjoyable.
Definitely, cos' i'm comparing it to mugging for O's..=)
adding to the joy, i heard half a song sung by Kim Jeong Hoon.
though just half, but it is enough to melt me.
but i did not buy it! many many reasons..
never mind, i will check it out some other places. =P

enough of crap, going back to GOONG!

-it will be over soon, yes it will be...-

1 down

1 down.
and it's only Biology prac.
and there is more to come...
working hard for it
and may i excel in it.

-may my wishes come through, for all of you too...-

countdown

take a look at the time and it is 3.44am in the wee hours of the morning.
Well, i slept from 2100 to 2300, thus being wide awake right now.
Had a bad cramp in my left calf during my so-called nap,
and it still hurts a lil till now.. no idea why.
btw, there is something real wierd..
Im only wide-awake when I'm in front of the computer screen,
and toh~tally sleepy when I'm doing papers.
think they are just lullabies to me, despite them not singing anything.
Guess this is then called "power".. =D

Study leave is starting soon,
but tomorrow is marking day..
that is why i can still be here..
tomorrow, am going to MJC openhouse,
guess i will enter there after intense consideration
well, choices are limited.
Just provide me the will to endure through this crisis period...

Thoughts for last week;
now sorta undergoing a real pittest-pit-period.
days are lousy, moods as well.
many many different things takes place,
but i have not a single idea why it is happening.
tears brimming when im reading.
it is just too sad to be accepted,
that we are just nothing next to dust..

And for tis week;
someone asked, what in my purpose in life?
i pondered for a while and wondered..
we struggled and hung on,
and all is just for what?
still find no answer to the question.
and just concluded that it is for a better tomorrow.

Some rough countdown;
`4 days to start of practicals.
`3 weeks to start of papers
`5 weeks to completion of papers
`6 weeks to crazy time
`7 weeks and im flying!!!
i only like the last part.. well, who doesn't...

-things will be over before you know it.. and it's great that way..-

beginning of a new ending

a special dedication to none other than YOU:
trying to change myself into a better person
just for you.
but you seem to be doing for the other you

trying hard but
with no success.

will perservere.
provided you don't take me for granted.

not making any complaints
doesn't mean I'm happy.

I just do not wish to
burden you with my woes.
although sometimes i did.

I'm here for what I am
be thankful.
yes, its you.

-give me the chance, real friends do...-

after prelim activities

ytd had a great time
took the last paper and we hit the theatres
caught John Tucker Must Die
which is a pretty great show.
thereafter, went shopping at the same usual TMcumCS.

went home, and carried on another shopping spree.
tis time with mum and it is at Orchard
had bought lotsa of stuff from
inner wear, undergarments, to outer wear, winter jackets
well, i think i spent more than a hundred..
eh, great thanks to mum! =)

took a bus home and slept all the way back
btw, joo chiat area is really brightly lighted
and also bustling with activities.

today was work-out day
woke up early
walked and bathe kaiser,
all single-handedly, and mind you,
it's really tire one out
and after that,
i continue sweeping the whole house
PLUS mopping!

met up with few peeps
and continued with my workout regime
went running.. 3 rounds
followed by swimming,
or should i say dipping in water?

hehe, yeah, i cant swim, and im not at all shameful for tat.
they tried teaching me, but i guess Im just too stiff for it.
but i thot of learning it
and it will be with lotsa of kids,
and it makes me have second thoughts about it
just considering... ...

came home and ate
btw, you guys should
catch Channel 8 9pm every Saturday
I Not Stupid serial..
it is really hilarious and nice!
and im here now..

-had fun, and want more!-

Simply Seven

Simply Seven
tis shall be my new title.
my favourite title and theme combined together. =)
keechen had suggested remaking one,
so i just went along with it since it is already AFTER Prelims.

see tat, it is after
which is to say that a major hurdle is over,
BUT i still had not gotten my results back
im not hoping for much,
cos im not my usual form tis time.
just hoping for the best is all i can do now,
before the terror days come.

O's will be in approx. a months time,
which is not very far away..
and my stress is goona flood back
at ME AGAIN!!
nevertheless, i just want it to happen fast
so that i can carry out those things that i had planned.
im anticipating... ...

-i hoping for no more less than that, fulfil my wishes...-

.once upon a time.

music flooding into me, thoughts flooding through...
true love makes one happy, but fairytales do not exists
so what is the point...

-it's all a silly talk and thought, to think i ever fathom about it...-

.the end.

Did not plan to write anything about it, but just to let some of you know why im absent from school that Tuesday after Youth Day. you can read from my sis blog, http://crankyshopaholic.blogspot.com/2006/07/we-just-got-closer.html
do not wish to dig up the sad stuff, yeahh, so just this for you peeps...

I merely was absent for a tuesday lesson, and im like really lagging behind in lessons.. I just felt too tired to learn, and frustrated at times. Having mood swings cum the family probs are also one of the contributing factors to the lag in me. nevertheless, i can feel myself picking the trail of pieces up slowly, which is rather fulfilling, so i'll just let this pace increase by itself..

i will not be blogging that often now, and i think i really mean it this time.. so please don't expect too much from this blog.. it is going haywire too, and i'm just not bothered to do anything to it..

-save the tears for i know it will be useless; save the sorrows for i know she will be happier that way... ...-

.new environment.

yeahss... im right now blogging at my sis' hse.. new environ rite? never the mind, im just being lame. hahaas. having a bbq at the void deck here tomorrow night. it had been so long since i last went for a bbq. think the last one is last year end hols.
i'm right now enjoying the last few peaceful days of mine after the past few days of "chionging" my hols assignment.. I know of quite a number of people who are already starting to revise for their prelims, and know i should do like wise, budden... my inner self just refuse to do. what can i do. mum alreadi asking me why i have not start revising... well, to answer you frankly, im just too lazy... [im not blaming her for stressing me, sometimes tat little bit of pressure works for me.. im not insane, seriously..] Let me enjoy the last few days before i begin preparing for my exam battle, i've alreadi promised myself i will... really..
Talking about battle, recently read on the newspaper about the nuclear thingi that korea is about to test or something. Im really getting curious what will happen if it really happens. I just know that i will not be good. War is never good, there will always be bloodshed... so never start them please... ...
okie dokie! going to watch show. so tata for now. i will not be blogging that often now.. so sorry peeps.. =P
-getting myself into the mood, please grant me the mood...-

.laze.

look at the time i'm blogging... yeah. it is 4 whole hours past midnight, and im still fully awake, with no mood to sleep. Must be the doing of the caffeine in the tea[from Cameron Highlands, yum yum!] that i had taken few hours back then. it takes awhile before it activates... So now, peeps, you know what to do when you guys wants to stay up late..

i managed to complete my geog articles and i found like 25 since there are so many disasters going on, and i just pasted all on blank papers and completed summaries. think im just gonna give ms koh those extras bahs. make these her farewell gift.. hahaas. I've been at this for the past 3 hours plus, and this time can be used to do my A math hw. im like left with so many other hw not like py who can really enjoy her hols. so much of me saying i do not like doing homework for the whole day in my previous entry. now im just being envy of people, forgive me peeps..

Today sis and mh came over. in the end we did not bring kai for his grooming thanks to who's ever silly mistake. No one's fault actually, just some misunderstanding and forgetfulness. so next week then he will be fur-less. muahahaa!!! [i sounds so evil... *evil grin*] i did practically nothing in the afternoon, yeah, practically nothing, oh! i slept.. hahaa...

-lazing around may be relaxing now, but not in the next few weeks...-

.happy day.

Today was a nice and fun day. I was jolted awake at precisely 1021, cos' i had forgotten to set my alarm to wake up at 10 to watch the repeat of Superband. In the end i missed the first two bands which i yearned to watch. who would not want to watch Snoopy and their extraordinary performance and also Brods with their powerful vocals. But Brods seems to prove me wrong with their 2nd lowest marks. Anyway, there is something to rejoice for which is the team that lotsa my friends and i want it to get out is finally OUT!!

Had to continue with my newspaper cutting, which my mum had helped me to collect the daily newspapers during my geog trip. By the way, the geog trip was fun man. Just that we had missed quite a lot of case studies which i really wish we could do, and also the Mega Mall shopping which i bet everyboby must be harping about it now, and thus i did not buy much stuff, still saded over it... Nevertheless, the long bus rides was quite worthwhile, it had really helped me to understand some of my friends and teachers better. But i seemed to missed out another fun at est's bbq...

Went out with mum and kat for the whole afternoon to Parkway. We shopped and the whole shopping centre was really bustling with business with the sale on and all those stuff, but i did not buy much though, jus too tired to buy.. just bought one pair of shorts and some hair stuff. We went to Jack's Place for dinner, i had salmon, and i still preferred Fish & Co. instead. We did not try the steak either, quite idiot right, since that is usually what people will order... but me and my sis went crazy over her newly-bought digi cam. we were snapping away of ourselves, posing like some bimbos. yeahs, went home after a while more of shopping of kaiser's food, it really weigh a tonne to me.. but i still managed to lug it back home.

yepp, now i had finished cutting my articles and was doing the summaries until my head was nodding away. i had only managed to complete 7, and have more than half left, and tomorrow i'm bringing kai for grooming, which also meant i do not have the whole day to do my hw. But i still prefer this type of holidays, enjoying myself in the day and doing homework at night, It just seems more paced out, more like a holiday to me. I doubt i will also spend the whole day doing my homework, might as well relax myself, before the next battle...

-let me stay in this mood, cos i'm just loving the feel of it...-

.state of loss.

I have not a single idea where I'm standing. In me, i feel so stranded by myself.. I can really feel the importance of friends and I definitly appreciate them standing by me in those times of desperation. I would hereby present my utmost sincere thanks to KC and BS for all the support that you both had rendered to me. Thanks!

Once, i felt so charged, so sure of where I'm going. I really like those times and i know it really work things out. But now, I'm total opposite. I'm feeling lost again. Lost in the busy world comprise of the so many people in it. At these times, i really wish someone would offer a hand and lead me... Just the someone... Went to the Bedok "Kbox" on Thursday.. I was like happily enjoying myself when i all a sudden, while listening to a particular song. I felt so 'emo' and all those feelings came flooding back, making my eyes brimmed with tears... I guess it was all a mistake in the beginning and I should not have repeated the mistake that day again.. I've no idea why Im feeling that way, but it just came and go, leaving me helpless all over again...

In approx 2 days time, i will be away in Malaysia, for the geog trip.. I was quite looking forward to it and hope my excitement will be paid off. Yep, i believe it will...

-I wish i knew where i can escape to, escape from all these hell... Someone, tell me all these is just a disguise...-

.Absence.

yeAhsss~~ exams are nearly over, which also meant that the stress is depleting. guess it will build up again when we are getting out results back. but never the mind, let us be more optimistic.

During the Exam period: fallen sick abt 3 days before the exams, what can be more dreadful than that. during exam period is sick cum recovering, but still manage to get myself to revise. well, surprisingly, i can do the Chem paper! Which i usually am clueless about what it is talking about for all the past papers. but tink it is easy, so on a average, it does not make much difference. English is quite a killer, physics nv expect it to have so much on sec 3 topics, so not very prepared for tat paper. tink bio is sorta wasting our time. well, genetics taken me one of the longest time to study, and all that come out is in Paper 1. Furthermore, there is less than 5 qn on tat. I had enough time for chinese paper...! but results-wise, no gurantee.. hahaAs.. E maths P2 was not as difficult as i thought it will be. i thought it will be the type of paper like the-yr-before paper, but came out quite oRrrrhhh~kay lars... as for geog and ss, not really confident... just pray tat wont fail. think that about summarises for the exam period.

Now for the after exams part...

We are having a long weekend tis week and on monday had to go back to school for approx 3 hours, but main objective is the last 1 hr paper, a lil dUH right. cant help it. after which the saga of mid year exams will be OVER!!! and we will have a marking day and the day after is also a school holiday for us, cos of the Elections holiday postponed to then.. another Hurray for that. have quite a number of things on my mind that i want to do. Wish to:
(i) go cycling[best is night cycling, but tat seems impossible.so had to settle on sth simple. main wish..hmm...]
(ii) watch The Da Vinci Code movie and Aquamarine [no other movies, peeps, no point persuading me.. heEs..]
(iii) watch those DVDs that had been piling up long since before MYE [heard tat some seems very gross, so having second thoughts..]
(iv) mayb have another SPL gathering?? camp?? Nostalgic over the good old days..
(vi) Going back to the shopping craze that i had gotten into before exams, gotta control though...
(vii) sweating it out. but how to??
(viii...) many others which i cant think of right now...

to conclude... i think i put in my best efforts and i ought to reward myself for that, and perhaps regret only after getting the results... PREPAING TO UNWOUND!!!
I Believe In Reaping What I Had Sowed...

.My Life.

Blogging seems tiring to me now, i had lost the fire to blog. Perhaps it is because that my life had became stagnant with nothing much to blog. Reading blogs is much more better. Advantages being: 1) Can know ppl better. 2) Realise that there are more things happening. Disadvantage: 1 and only) very strenous, esp when you start reading from the very beginning...

My Stagnant Life: Nothing much happen for the past few weeks, except for things that i dont think is worth blogging down like boring stuff and unpleasant stuff.

yeaS~~ stepping down already, but it seemed to me i did not hand over very properly, or is it the teacher's fault again, since the teacher is the middleman. Heard all these from my juniors when we went out for lunch at Pizza Hut...Really pity them fro having to tolerate HIM for another year... nvm, going back on monday to see see them and maybe to settle those problems, since the teacher dont seem to be very trustworthy.

Managed to come across many pictures from our class chalet. Well, the sense of nostalgia is flooding back again, as usual. I'm really missing those 3 days, 2 nights. Deeply etched in my memories... The sunrise is extremely nice in the photos, dont seem like the one we saw in realistic, or issit photography skills??
i miss you... ...

-those feeling will always be hidden, no other than that...-

.nothing is what it seems in this realistic world of ours.

What a nice holidays indeed. Yeah, nice... Hope you can sense that im sorta being sarcastic. How great can a hols be with as little sleep as normal days, a lot more hw, same amount of problems bugging me, blah blah blah... Well, most of it is what I caused myself to have one. Anyway having any regrets will help nothing, no point crying over split milk.

Got my progress report out. Doesnt look as good as i thought. thanks to some NICE grades i have which i had forgotten. Guess my memory has great filtration skills, making the happy one vivid, and hiding the bad one.... Rememering only the impressive ones and not the others. I had failed 2 tests, and one of them being english, the other was expected, chem. Average percentage wasn't any better.

Performing for speech day and guess what, we had to wear ethnic costume. How crappy can it get... Just shit the teacher to hell for the damn great suggestion. You really have great ideas. Well, sometimes when you want to lie, can you please tell some believeable one and not one which makes us question the credibility. Anyway, i really dread going for CCAs now, having to see the great teacher, and best of all talk to him makes me wanna feel like puking. I really wish i had not taken up this position in the comittee, just because of of this, im obliged to make so much commitments. Tks for the tempting CCA points...

Perhaps as what py had mentioned in her blog, we cant have everything. I really love any other thing about choir except the teacher. My juniors are really a great bunch of ppl, instructor was good, other teachers in charge is okay, well, except that one who can really spoil my mood. Was so the pissed and angry this afternoon. My mood really plunged to the lowest of the pit today. what great fashion sense does he have, well, quit bullshitting to me, im no kid! What The Hell...

-i cant be what i want right, you force me to be one...-

.dang!.

Had been neglecting this blog of mine lately, but i think tis may happen quite often in future. Because ive been very lazy to switch on the computer just to blog, i had lost my interest in almost everything...

Went to watch Disney on Ice yesterday. It was great, except that the things there can really be expensive. Imagine a small ice ball [like traditional ice kachang, except tat it is smaller] with a disney mug cost 14 dollars, a packet of candy floss with a mickey crown cost 12 dollars and a large packet of popcorn in a Disney bucket cost 16 dollars. Well, imagine...

no matter wat, the show is relatively nice, but not nice till WOW type... after the show we went really crazy, taking photographs like we just knew the squarish gadget can draw pictures of us in it. der... we just went over the moon. Had a great lots of fun at Kallang River, and also had problem going home cos' we were sort of lost in our small island and unable to get a cab... This is something I know i should be shameful of. Still managed to get home though. Reached home really wiped out and just bathed and slept.

Despite the insuffiecient sleep over the past few days, i still managed to crawl out of my sleeping territory and get my ass to school for the dreadful choir practice. Not really that dreadful after all, just that I did not went out for lunch with my juniors and others after the practice, and i turned down pohyu because of this. I then realised I am gonna be stuck at home alone, but I went to my mum's the childcare instead and slacked there playing with a small children's toy vehicle, which I am clueless what is it called. I just had to turn the handle and it moves without me using my legs to push, amazing right? Okay, it's just a kiddish toy and i shouldn't get so fasinated over it. Then went home and slept till dinner time. Great time management huh. I did not complete my hw as planned, well, plans for and by my usually go awry... This is why it makes life more "exciting"...

-noted that now most children sleeps lying flat down in their face...-

.Down.

I wanna cry I wanna scream till my lungs tear I wanna pummel myself

I just want hide in the small corner of my own.
I just want to be a stalwart girl.

-Is it too much...?-

.slacked off.

Well, as the title suggests, im just slacking my minutes, hours days and weeks away.. My slack is really lazing around, and not doing anything. It seems that other classes are all so stressed up and me so relaxed. i actually spent my whole night lying on the cold and icy floor, just listening to the radio and staring blankly in the ceiling. Do not like the feel of that although i should be enjoying while it lasts. Ironic.

Perhaps all come from a single root of cause, which is all my feelings bottled up in me, making me a wierdo. I've not any slightest idea what is happening in me. I could sense a change in my thoughts and ME...

- i want back my fulfilled life with accomplishments, i do not like the feeling of nothingless. as i said in my previous entry...-

.blah blah blah.

Did nothing much today.

Just woke up, rushed through morning routine, went to sch, underwent approx. 2 hrs of boring SS, lunch, BOUGHT JJ's CD!!, went home, slept, went to CGH in the evening, dinner, and home.

Really nothing much. So nothing much here as well...

-Feeling nothinglessness is bad... Real bad...-

.review.

This is a new blogskin, and i finally got it done, although it took me ages. Nevertheless, i think it looked alright.

Many things had happened in my life these past few months and i guess words just aren't enough to explain all that had happened.

I will just try to let bygones be bygones and carry on this crappy life of mine.

There are times when i really appreciate the creation of the water heater, as i difinitely like the feeling of the warm water flowing from my head till the last strand of my hair. Taking away with it the worries, problems and the so many other things and having it all gushed into the drain.

If things were that simple, I would not have that much problems. But i certainly like the feeling of being cleansed.

I am beginning to see the irony of life, and how complicated it can be. People maybe all hiding behind their own masks and portraying what they want others to depict them to be. This reminds me of the movie "Memoirs of Geisha", where behind the beautiful, thick, white makeup lies all the lines of ambiguity.

How ironic is it when we always grumble about people faking, and yet we will still say when they are being their true self.

I think i had changed a great deal, and perhaps i had been too stressed up in the past few weeks. i just want to put in my best effort and not regret like what i did in pri 6. Thus, i'll also take this opportunity to apologise to those people who i had hurt in either ways, i had never meant to be like that...

-seeing him no longer makes my heart jumps, it just makes my heart ache...-
Listening to some songs can really make me tear... i have not the slightest idea why they have such huge hidden power in them to be able to move me...

testing 1, 2, 3.

just a test. tis isnt a proper entry.

new year!

well... it's a new year now. wish everybody a happy new year.

with regards to the "supposedly" lost class tee, i had found it already. perhaps im too stressed out with some other stuff, tat i start blaming other people without any real reasons. sorrie guys...

need not work now, as sch is reopening. well, tis working experience may be tiring, but it is the first time i worked on a job for so long [the 1st is flyers, and it is only 3 days, but it is the ppl im hanging out with tat counts..>.< ] it is also the first time i workedtill 3 plus in the morning, on my last day. cool right..

now waiting to get pay, and also preparing for camp. have to spend my brithday in a camp, should i be happy or sad... haha.. im not sure abt it either.

okie dokie.. gotta sleep now. or i cant wake up tmr alreadi.

(.") hoping everything goes well, and ends well. wishing for the best. (".)

failure

who can be of more of a failure than i am. i cant believe i lose my class tee. it is like so depressing when i realised i cant find it. and my father is like rubbing salt onto the wound with all his crappy comments. well our house is small and things cant be gone, but there is still a possibility of it dropping off the drying pole right. dont have to admit that you are careless, but you dont have to make so much comment as well. im so pissed that i have no mood for dinner jus now.
well, emotions seem to be overwhelming today. no idea why. perhaps it is just wat makes a lady. was listening to some music that i used to like, and my mind went wandering off to nowhere. if it were positive emotions, i will not mind, but most of them were negative one. some one teach me how to control them.

today went to the Panasonic factory. we finally succeeded in going for the factory tour. but alvin did not get to enter as he was in his NCC uniform, which make them think he is an army boy. how wierd can adult thinking be. learnt abt how the factory work and it is pretty interesting as it is the first time. plus that i did not know the factory is so big, as i always thought bedok cant hold such big factories. just a misconception i guess.

(.") hoping the tee can be found. teach me how. teach me now. (".)

12.12.05

Yeah. Im so great right. Updating at this time of the day.. should be morning I think. Wee hours of the day and im not sleeping instead. Tomorrow still have to work and im still not sure why I landed at bedok south sec instead of Temasek. Still prefer Temasek, perhaps I should tell auntie ivy that.

I had done another emaths paper and also did half of the X’mas presents. Told ya im great. LoL enough of promoting myself. But nth else to say, so byeS!
(.") is it true that fear takes avway every potential in you? hoping for nothin', wishing for more. (".)

review

Well, it had been long since I last blog. It is very obvious, from the previous post. okay, Im now trying hard to make my blog sound less slinglish. Okay, nowadays have very little time to myself. I now know why es wants to quit. It is like no life.

But what to do if I need to have money. Now work already, but have no idea how to tell the auntie ivy to give me my nov pay first, or else how am I gonna to survive for dec. she said she will give me on sat, but who knows if it is true.

And I cant believe myself tat I actually said I going to huamin on saturdae. Bet im outta my mind then. Well..just slog my guts out on that day for the sake of the money. Hope it is worth it.

Yesterday did bio mcq. Think I need to have a show at night before I can get some homework done. But at least I did some, and not rush them all out in the end. end up today nearly overslept. Yesterday slept at 1 plus. Read The OC. It is pretty nice. Or should it be interesting, it is like a story about teenagers like us, just that we are not as open-minded as them.

told him everything, tks for the urge. well, now everything is supposedly cleared, but heart still aches. may i be able to forget about it soon... ...

tomorrow going to Sentosa. hopes everything is fun, and make it a worth it break.

(.'') "sometimes i feel that it is good to let it out," he said that to me. (''.)

wishlist 3

birthdae in less than 2 months time.. waited so long for it.. happy, but it also meant sch reopening... sobx

new updated one...! u can get me any of tis stuff... haha. but money which is not included can be give too... wakakAs...!

>-)))-'} i wish for a fairyland, where the word "unhappy" don't exist.
>-)))-'} time
>-)))-'} fun
>-)))-'} a new cam phone
>-)))-'} side bag[perhaps 1 from bloodbros...?] \\new!!\\
>-)))-'} sneakers/shoes \\new!!\\
>-)))-'} the surfer paradise shirt \\new!!\\
>-)))-'} someone whom i can confide in
>-)))-'} board for my study table.. for putting notices.. \\new!!\\
haVe maNy wiShes, but jusT wriTe thEm down foR Fun..howEvEr, iF yOu waNnA gIve mE anY oF thoSe, iT is sErioUslY fInE.. gEees ("_)

hols....!

wow.. now then i realise it had been dunno when i last blogged. well, think this blog is rotting away soon.. did not have the mood and privacy to blog. hols is nearly half gone and im finally working... hees, tks est. todae first dae onli.. now really noe money doesnt come easy. only half dae and im nearly dead. lols. i had completed my summaries, left the cutting and pasting.. weee!! sounds so great, but if i list out all my other undone homework, all the happiness will be smashed to pieces. well nth much to write also. jus wan to update. many things had happened and cant record all down.. lazy to do it. well.. should i go and watch the exorcism of emily rose? same said boring, some said scary.. but im afraid that i might jus waste my money to get scare stiff, since im that kind of person who dun watch ghost movie.. but it seems interesting to me..someone tell me how... okies.. nth much already.. will update as soon as possible.. byeS!!

a sunday

well.. todae was pretty okay.. woke up early jus to see wat is the ingredients required for the making of tang yuan for our chinese pro. mum wanted to buy for sis wedding, so i went with her so that will know wat to buy when doing project.. so thoughtful of me yeah. den came home and did some house cleaning.. scrubbed and washed the kitchen floor for abt one hour and then bathed and got ready for our project meeting.

we were supposed to meet 1300 at bedok inter alighting pt.. well, haoyan, alvin and gerald all forgot and we had to call them and wait for them.. wat a nice start rite.. den the rest went pretty well though.. we went to the library in search for some information, but could not find any.. when we left the lib, hao yan was with us already.[funny thing is that at that time, all 5 of us were wearing all black tops although we did not say anything before hand.] then went back to the alighting pt to look for gerald seeing if he is also wearing a black one, but saw him with a pure white tee instead.. kc and me then had our lunch while waiting for alvin at the hawker centre.. he came after we finished eating, and we went to the desserts stall to order tang yuan.. the uncle was friendly..and give us great help.. after which we went to eat the hot and cold desserts in another stall.. and tis time we were not so fortunate.. almost all the dessert that we bought from that particular stall did not taste as wat we had expected. it is like a little tasteless or wierd tastes. now i noe why my family trusts and always buy from hollywood.. it is really nice..

after eating and taking many many photos, we went to fairprice to buy the ingredients. bought them and went to burger king to discuss the dates for our projects. there were no available seats, so we went to the library suggested by kc. we went to the third storey which we thought we could have more freedom in discuss and making noise.. But Noooooooooo[py's fave phrase..], it did not turn out as expected. we were fooling around and kc took out her cam wanting to take a photo of the beautiful planet scene, but a libraian saying that there are signages when we did not even see any single one, that we are not supposed to use cameras and that they will be confiscated. well.. after all those crap, she got nastier jus because bs joked with her, and her attitude turn from bad to worst and she threaten that she will report us to our sch if we continue being a fool in the library and that there are many cameras ard the lib, where we will all be closely scruntinised.. yeah we were SOOO scared that we left the lib, not wanting to create trouble. after tis experience.. im beginning to wonder why all libraians are so nasty and are they paid to chase ppl out of the library jus because they misbehaved. i know that the lib should be kept quiet, but do they have to threaten us, or issit they hate teenagers like so many other places.. well, i seriously have no idea wat stuff is in the brains of those ppl.. i had met not one but many other times abt ppl having problems with teenagers and not other ppl of another age group.. jus my luck i tink.. came home with nth to do, so slept till dinner and after dinner watched tv and continue sleeping. therefore im now past midnight and im still wide awake.. tink my body clock is going off timing.. [i finally gave u guys a break from my problems.. ]

(.") things happen for a reason, but i dont understand why is this thing happening.. (".)

burst open

todae out came everything.. quarreled, screamed and cried my heart out tis morning.. but felt so much better now.. cried myself to sleep after tat and slept until 3 plus during which im so pissed off by the so many phone calls.. then woke up with a hungry stomach and a splitting headache.. wat a bad day rite.. den went to visit my gran in ICU.. she's okay after another op. and hope tis will be de last.. 1st time cleaning dentures.. at first it seems very disgusting, but after rinsing many times, it is okie.. den went out for dinner with aunt, sis and mum.. dinner was quite nice and went home after tat...
well.. quite apologetic towards my sis for the sudden outburst of emotions.. though they were not totally innocent, but the extreme outburst is also due to other pressing problems.. jus have to one to break the whole thing, and thus end up screaming and crying at her.. quite an ugly sight though.. tink im quite foolish after giving it some thought.. now everything is back to normal... normal bad i mean.. but get on with life no matter wat.. okies.. tats all i got to say.. jus forgive me if i all a sudden give u a black face.. i apologise in advance.. there is too much things happening that im not sure what im doing some times.. so sorry.
(.") tks for the chat ytd, hao.. really appreciated.. really want future ones.. get well soon gran.. get it over! (".)

may e peace be with me

exams over.. everything seems empty, but still got some stuff freaking me out.. or issit me myself freaking myself. not sure either. jus cant get it clear why some teacher still need to go through some topics even it if straight after our BIG exams. it is like we still cant remember them when sch reopens next yr, so wats e pt. now troubled by some prob.. all is for the hols the.. need to make plannings and some is like the always problems. jus cant get them solved, so now kept being pestered by it... firstly is the choir camp.. not sure if they wanna have it.. but still need to think out some things for choir, which is like so slack... tink all our voices all going off tuned liao... next thing is the sleepover lor.. everybody not sure of their timing.. so how to get the days rite.. trying to get tat settled.. now is the most irritating prob.. been with it since before the exams.. so dun even noe the root of the prob, how to solve it.. yeah.... so THINK....! just crapping around... and tat is how i live... full of quarrels and bickers.. can i get used to them?? i dun tink so.. sch betta break as fast as possible.. kill everything!!!

yeah.. almost forgot to mention yi hao.. according to him, he say he is the nicest man on earth.. very bu yao lian hor.. haha.. ~i mention u liao ah.. u nv specify how i can mention u.. heehee...~
(,")may the peace be with me...(",)

taste of peace

it had been how long since my last entry? not sure either, but it really seems months, exams are so taxing.. and i had finally got the load off me! on thur did sth very rediculous... actually having meeting with PLs dey all, den end up cancelled.. which should be a good thing since we were planning to go out if not for the meeting.. with the meeting cancelled, we went to safra with the guys frm my class, inteding to bowl, as wat is said.. but still tis plan did not go well too. the bowling center got some tornament stuff going on, so decided to go to TM *yeah.. there again...*in fact is walk there.. we walk and run instead.. which is not really wat we expected and wanted.. we girls dunno the way very well, so have to depend on the tampiness kids, de guys, and they tink it is really fun to run, we jus chase after them, for dunno how far.. until we noe the way already, den went to TM ourselves while they went the other way.. which also meant we seperated lar.. lol. we went to the basement in search for stuff to fill our tummies.. i bought the 1A sadine puff, which is like scalded my tongue dunno how many times.. and they bought the fried chicken.. yi hao and solomon got some heart, and came down to the basement to find us while the other two creeps, stay upstairs giggling... *guys giggle as well... betta not mention their names if not i will be dead..* haha.... but we jus scarcastically said sth.. and they went up as well... well.. tis is how the afternoon of after exam went.. since no entertainment value at TM and CS, we called gao and asked him where is his hse, and went over.. you should try clearing ur hse up.. although it will take long.. den went to see how they guys play bb.. try hard man, kelvin.. tks for the lollipop and the drink too.. then went home and went to kimage to cut my hair.. dinner out too.. my hair... erm.. dunno how to describe it, it jus feel wierd.. see alreadi den u will noe..

fri is marking dae, so whole dae out.. went to kbox at marine parade, with abt the same ppl.. and sang like some crazy ppl out from IMH.. went into the building with the bright glistening sun and came out with the silent moon and stars in the skies.. went for dinner, which is like 7 ppl squeezing in a small rectangle hawker centre table.. pro rite.. but had a hilarious dinner.. had a embarrassing trip back top bedok on 197, with us making a whole lot of noises among the rest of the quiet ppl.. we were like all laming ard lor.. den reach inter and went home..

yeah.. todea sat... did nth much other than slacking.. 1st thing in the morn is alreadi bathing for kai.. den slept again and clear up my desk, and the battle area during the past few weeks.. the destructions took me a whole afternoon to clear... *bad destruction rite...* swept and mop the whole hse and then settled for a nice harry potter.. who knows my vcd player is so cranky in the hot afternoon, and kept replaying and playing.. i like saw abt 5 to 6 times harry and hagrid in the bank.. as well as harry at the wand shop... got fed up and after the 1st cd i gave up and went to on the com and carried on with my fan fic.. offed the com at ard 7 and ate dinner, den now seeing that the telly nth much to watch, back here typing tis ultra long blog.. 3 daes tog.. not much cut leh.. so nice of me to write so long rite, gao... haha

(,") everything is peaceful and may it remain like that... give me the pleasures...(",)

again and aGain... ...

dreads.. jus feeling lousy... dunno for watsoever reason.. they are bad.. issit frm the exam stress.. is like im jus me, and i jus cant change myself. nobody is perfect and i dun tink u are too.. i jus have my faults and i jus live with it and if u wanna be frens, den cant u jus live with it... it seems like some kiddish stuff but it is getting worst as the days passes. it is getting worst and i feel so lousy everytime im in sch. its jus horrible, and i bet you will definitely not enjoy the feeling.. if u are the one. cant elaborate much here.. everything jus stinks..
now tat exams are around the corner, everyone is so stressed up and things start bitching abt.. shall jus get over wif it, nicely, and its to the last lap of secondary life.. isnt it great.. but it takes a lot to get over everything nicely..i will try my best, but definitely no promises tat i can really do it.. how i wish i can jus sleep and not wake up anymore.. the test tat i took todae isnt gonna turn out well.. as like wat they had all said.. im jus over special in my thinking.. i may jus flunk it.. well, best of luck to me.. they are rite.. im wrong.. way wrong.. \everything is my thinking.. none of their fault... `yeah rite!`\ kkZ. enough for todae.. no more brain juices..
(,") im not a thing.. even if i am, u cant jus use me and treat me like shit.. (",)

aRrgGghhhZ

arRggGhhhZ.. school reopening in about 6++ hours to go.. which is like- uRrMph.. while im still here typing away.. so short hols. but quite fun.... nth to write now.. so lets recap on my hols..

`camp until mon. den amath lesson after tat.

`tue peeSICs lesson.. late for it.. but it is alrite.. u noe why if u noe whose the teacher... den kc and bs came over to my hse.. bought lots of junk food to replace my previous dae dinner, tat dae breakfast and lunch.. den watch SUPERSTAR! till 1900.. den dey went back.. and i cleared up and ate dinner... which i had totally lost my apettite alreadi.. lols

`wed slept slept and slept.. den 2 plus went to kc hse.. supposedly to do homework.. but did a lil, den ended up doin her jigsaw puSSle... den went home.. did hw late at nite, and sleep...

`went to sch to clear up PL room.. and of course kc late again.. went up to her hse and waited for her.. the room is cleared, and new fengshui as well.. and than i realised my umbrella is lost,, i got feelings for it one leh... at nite chiong homework again.. at the end left onli a math and map reading

`fri slept till late, den went out wif jie jie and mama.. saw est and yol at the train.. den later meet up wif the rest of all my sis.. saw cheyl oso.. my choir senior.. bought clothes for jie jie wedding dae... quite nice lar... but now having prob matching a bottom with the top.. went home den did map reading... so now left wif am..

`sat went out with kc, bs, wl and bz... went till late late.. den go home. went kbox, den bugis..

`and todae.. sun.. went to jie jie's new hse at Bt Gombak.. far like one end from another lors... on the way there read harry potter.. den way back home slept on the train den now neck aching... den saw kelvin when im half asleep and at my most hagged state after dunno how many hours of clearing away dusts... did am hw after dinner, which is my last one... and im DONE!! now laming wif my 'seniors' of out special club at our special session.. tis is how i spend my hols lor.. simple rite.. haha.. kkz.. will try to blog asap.. but no promises.. since the term is reopening... so fast...! kkz.. nitey! [or issit early morning??] =)

a change

term 3 is over, camp is over, the feelings fading, but more and more mixed up, but is this the new me tat ive been asking for.. if tis is really the one, im a lil regretful... blogging in the wee hours of the dae, cos im rushing homework.. and jus happen tat my hand click and saw tat some anonymous doggie ask for an update.. so, im here updating..

the camp was fun.. except for the cooking part which is so troublsome... someone, please make cooking hassle-free. knew more ppl, all the exco ppl are all out.. no more camps alreadi.. sobz... really gain a great number of great frens through peer leaders thingi.. and though we may all from different class, hope tat we can all stay in contact and mayb return as alumni when we are old.... ermmm.. quite a good idea.. now im missing camp life.. bet some others also too.. it is like everybody is so close together, chatting, gossiping, joking and of course poming tog... but we did not do it tis camp... wasted..

presently, i seems to have spend a lot of time doing my hols assignment, but they still did not seem to be touched.. the days are flying and i do not want to go into the dreaded term 4.. which will then lead to the even more hated sec 4 life.. everything is like so fast... old alreadi.. tired alreadi.. i had lived another year one earth, which also meant that i knew a year worth of things more.. can i grow younger and be a child again and not older... being a child is so easy.. as compared to now..

detest all those dumb feelings stuff... got them off my mind during camp, but they all came back after camp.. wat the hell.. jus scram! gotta go it not i will be typing my head off again...

(,")wish for a fairyland.. can i get one? its all over alreadi.. which is great.. but it's getting boring.. can i have a great yet exciting life??(",)

bAtTeReD

tis is gonna be a sad and boring post. so no point reading it... i jus had too many things on my mind.. Im jus too tired out, and stupid feelings and thoughts are all coming to my mind, driving me crazy. How i wish i could have someone to talk to, to confide to, and let all those stuff tat is making me delirious out. They're really stinking up my mind!

Have a long week, and i guess another is coming soon.. what can i do except take it day by day.. think it is all not on purpose, jus that everyone is so closed together, and just took it for granted and heck care about it. but who would like feeling so left out and down. what else can i blame except of the me in me...

the school is like so shitty to me these few days, and just get the thought that school is fun. it is getting worst as the days pass.. and there is not at all any single thing that i can find to make me happy anymore.. im just a pissed off, down and rejected person sitting in a corner of nowhere.. im so sick of it and cannot take it anymore.. jus need to let it all out before continuing with my life. how i wish everyone can take off the big fat masks off their faces, and may there be truthness in the world. wont tat make everything easier and more happy. im a person too, think of my feelings, i need accompaniement as well, give me some... im so sick and tired alreadi...

tink i jus wanna end here, and hope i had not saded you as well.. so sorry for pouring out all my woes to u guys out there. but i need to do it.

(_")wE aRe beaUtiFul, nO matTer wHat thEy saY, worDs caNt brIng uS doWn...

PUSH THOSE THOUGHTS OUT!!!("_)

wishlist

deCidEd yo maKe a wiShlist, buT laZy to pUt iT in tHe blOg itsElf, sO jUst maKe tiS simPle one.

>-)))-'} i wish for a fairyland, where the word "unhappy" don't exist.

>-)))-'} time

>-)))-'} peace

>-)))-'} fun

>-)))-'} new me

>-)))-'} contact lens

>-)))-'} a new cam phone

>-)))-'} bag

(_") haVe maNy wiShes, but jusT wriTe thEm down foR Fun..howEvEr, iF yOu waNnA gIve mE anY oF thoSe, iT is sErioUslY fInE.. gEees ("_)

it's all over...

the whole ndp had ended but the tinge of sadness still had not left me. feeling down, cos need to leave some fun and cute ppl tat we had met during the long and tedious process.. nevertheless, can meet them online lar.. but the especially cute one seems hopeless.. onli got photos as memories and next to nothing besides dat.. nvm.. i can get back to my main subject.. haHa..! ytd took lotsa photos, but need to see when then can develop them. wan them asap.. the ndp ytd seems the same, jus abit more fun, cos we force ourselves to make it a last fun one.. there were more fireworks as well and every scream till we are hoarse.. the after parade party oso a short one and we still went back at ard 9 plus, unlike wat gab had said.. 12 plus.. which is also expected lar.. crappy.. tink i will really miss my past few hectic weeks..

on mon after the sch celebration, the spls went to pulau ubin.. everything actually went quite nicely, until the ending, when i fell, with some minor scratches and bleeding. something worst happen down the way.. and the details seems very longwinded to explain, so no explanation here... =) dats abt it alreadi.. and now had to rush the homework.. got lotsa A math qns to complete.. but luckily dere's no test tmr.. *phew*kkz, gonna miss u guys all... and.........got to rush off............*ZOOOOM!!*

(_")bringing my focus back to you, which hurts as much too...("_)

afresh

shit! i did a stupid thing...! actually finish typing the whole load of crap, and i changed everything to a single 'n' when im trying to change the colour. arrggg.. so frustrating.! long time no blog le, so got lotsa stuff to sae but had forgotten a whole lot as well... now jus say the main points liao.. cos it is like so early in the morn wif me not bathed yet. next week is gonna be a great or a horrible one... on mon goin to perform in sch. and it is like kinda wierd to have the choir doin some steps tat have the mass effect. and even wierd with a small number of ppl doin. and in addition, i oso did the steps so horribly wierd, so i tink i will spoil the whole thing... on tue is the big and the LAST day.. it is really very saddening... we are all gonna leave the whole thing. being involved in it is so over troublesome, but having it to be over seems very empty. how to get the best out of the both worlds. it seems impossible. mon oso doin racking on pulau ubin. tink i will fall down the bike lor.. haha.. dun care. fun can liao..

last week had been returning very late, cos of the hall deco.. now is a shimmering and starry hall... which looks really great. todae went out with mAma... cos todae no rehearsal.. den went to the same old tampines. mama bought me a 3 quarters... which really like it. den oso saw a pendent which is in the shape of the slipper.. cute ritex... but nv buy, cos tink not worth dat much, and now im regretting.. lol. tink i will still go and get it.

tink i had nth much to add except tat, i really tried to forget abt all those crappy feelings, but it jus wont go. obasan seems to be having the same problem as well.. lol. nvm will try harder... kkz, tink will see ya in a few weeks to go since always have such taxing load. always sleeping so late and waking up so early. really tiring, but i will persevere! i can do it... kkz, now goin to bathe, den gonna attack my high pile of homework... tataZ..!

(_") always thinkng of u in my heart, and it is also always bleeding hard... ("_)

RANT!!

now im really ranting.. tis is MY blog and i have the right to write what ever i want, and there is FREEDOM OF SPEECH here... wanna scream my head off abt a stupid idiotic person who is totally ignorant of anything tat is happening yet made lots of crappy comments.. a total crappy monkey with stinky odour and rotten mouth! she is jus not happy she not leader and tat we have PREVILEGES lor.. since u are so good i step down den see who will cooperate wif u lor.. i will make sure tat i rebel till the whole world is upset down. u are not a good leader and u are jus a councillor jus because of teeny weeny bit of hypocritical luck and tat u noe how to act cute and attract attention.. although u are not cute and u dun have any assets to fluant so tat can attract attention. u are jus wearing a thick fake armour tat is so hideous, but u still amke full use of it. u are ACTUALLY not busy, jus tat u are extra and NOT needed in some stuff, yet u still use ur thick fat skin and force urself thru.. heard tat u EXTRA BITCH!! anyway.. ur english suz, and it is not at all cool to write broken SINGLISH which is so horribly written and difficult to read. noe tat is ur monkey language, but we are not ur fellow sickening monkey frens... kkx.. tat is enough for now... poor other readers.. sorry.. jus venting my anger.. but not on u guys kkz..

okies.. now back to my normal old self.. had been a long time since i last blog and tis is wat u guys saw.. really apologetic for it.. but jus cannot control and i must let it out... if not no more kelly liao... me onli slightly explosive... cos not much explosive powder in me alreadi, after the previous explosion. wonder how to treat her tmr lor.. been trying hard to convince myself not to be unfair to her. but now, its like no point trying so hard.

a loooonnnggg two weeks had passed, and so many things had happened. is like still same boring one lor. den now having lotsa tests.. all piling up and suffocating me.. me started reading Harry Potter.. found it pretty nice, and interesting.... wan to continue till i read all... heeheez.. went o a SS stuff todae.. quite interesting... and oso saw him.. but now wish tat i dun have the feelings in the past ine the first place. now is like so painful... wan to forget but how nehX? is like really wan to kill off the feelings.. noe tat is totally hopeless.. but really trying hard... give me time and i can do it! enough liao lar.. no more ling gan... see ya..

may tat bitch be minced, chopped and DEAD!!

(_")peRcePtioNs cAn kiLl!("_)

NDP preview

todae was quite fun... as in overall.. cos there are some bad stuff too.. there was an NDP preview for the pri 5 kids... we went there far early, and were the first to reach there frm 4 blk... and everything is like normal.. slow and laggy... the exciting part came when the whole parade starts.. well.. i was very distracted.. and did many steps wrongly.. which is like very paiseh.. but oso heck care.. lOl..

den the climax is when the second person who parachute down came near us, and im like hoping tat he will come right in front of me when the accident happen... he was very near the ground when he was still moving very fast still... and he tried to slow it down by pulling the two lines, but still..... he could not land properly, and every thing jus took place very quickly... he landed on his side, and he jus laid there motionless, and medics jus came and surrounded... he was then carried away.. and heard frm some marshalls saying that he was "concussed" and jus sent to the hos. and tat mayb he could be paralysed... really sad for him.. but lets all pray all the best for him... accident can really take place very unexpectedly...

okays... anyway.. jus a note to some one whom im alreadi not very fond of, and now the impression of u is even "badder".... tears does not make u a champ, it only make u look like a fool. u are jus a lamer who cries over a lightstix.. okie.. dun wanna spoil my mood... really had fun.. but my voice seems to be flying away frm me once more... tat is real sad and pathetic, everytime i got betta, i got worst very soon.. todae learnt another acronym... UAFO... [u can ask me abt the meaning personally.. dun wanna pollute innocent minds...] quite sth that i would not like to sae, but in front of u irritating bhb creeps, i will OFTEN use it....! actually nth much alreadi... jus complains and whines... den tata for now... see you on KIDS CENTRAL! lol.. me being lamed too much.. =)

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niCe onE!

Okies.. me finally got the mood and time to blog.. lols.. jus lazy to do it for the past few daes.. went to escape on last sun.. really had fun, and for more details can mayb check it out at keechen's blog.. cos or else it will be really long-winded.. jus noe tat I had fun. Cut short.. the whole week was quite boring and tiring.. jus do hw and hw every nite.. which is boring and irritating... how I wish can have a dreamland where homework and stress do not exists... but dat seems a lil childish… dUh...!
Simply like todae best.. I can tell u tat it is simply the best dae since sch reopen... some of u may already noe why.. haha.. really had a fulfilling dae.. had fun and hope tat I can enjoy more of tis day.. but u tink it is possible?? Oso not sure.. jus enjoying the simple sweet experience.. lol.. so candy-like... *crunch* always wanting to sms and tok to u, but jus dun dare and dun wanna risk anything... but todae really had fun playing and toking... tks everyone.. really like it... love ya all lotsa...!!
Tmr is the 1st time the combine sch choir is performing for the public... jus had those type of mixed feelings.. but hope it can be fun.. den gonna to the optometrist[or whatever the spelling... jus the person who makes specs] ask him make my specs “tighter” so dat dun have to fidget so much moving the specs up when it slided down... wish me all the best though! Jus wanna have fun...!

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