saturday at home

i think examinations can make me stay at home for longer duration.
stayed at home for the entire day
and i think that's why it makes me love and hate my family more..

something that jolted me up from my nap..

i washed my BRAND NEW council badge
which i ordered AFTER my term in the dumb washing machine AGAIN!
the circle on the left is the old badge which i used a double-sided tape to secure it. and the NEW BADGE, the whole side is broken off!
when my mum passed it to me,
i was already like screaming and wailing like some kid.
so long since i felt so angry and irritated with myself.
cos i JUST gotten it in like less that 12 hours ago,
brand new in the bloody squished packaging.
and it's GONE again!
whhhaaaa..
really not fated to have a beautiful intact memory of it is it...?

this is the best i could get. it's still a beauty from far. though those fine lines of cracks will always be there. hmmm, infer infer...

after that something happened too.
come on,
being NICER-looking does not seem so good after all,
after all the destroy it can do to yourself.
the extra confidence you gain from it
doesnt benefit you in anyways,
but i think it just made you too complacent of yourself
too big a head will only get you into deep shit.
wait till you wake up and regret terribly.
friends whom you know for a while,
chats with you
tells you lotsa of stuff
doesnt mean they are really that great.
better than those who are really there..?
i dont understand the disgusting affection for each and everyone of them.
it's just gross me out.

pushing that outta my brain,
i studied real hard okays.
actually not very hard.
but i needa motivate myself even further..
cos im LAGGING behind my OPTIMUM schedule.
darn it.. like always..
and hana kimi taiwan version
is still as sweet as the previous time i watched it
whhhoooshh!!!

dinner with my mum!
i love it...!
i prepared it okayyss..
and preparing means just rearranging the stuffs nicely..
hahaa, cos she cooked it!
wakakaa..salmon, chicken, mushroom and veggie..
nicee!!

was reading a book i borrowed, 100 Great Principles to Live By.
it's just another of the small books with lil words per page.
actually it just have 1 meaningFULL line per page!
one that i like:

-He who had nothing to die for has nothing to live for.-
-Moroccan Proverb

-so where is my something to die for and live for...? it's my everything...-