ideality

i have the urge to come online to read bloggies and blog
but no one seemed to have updated.. :((
and i have not much things on my brain except lots of random thoughts..

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excited for aTWO chalet!!
yepp, the pre-u sem SLOs from my cluster having a get-together!!
miss those hated dear old days..
so ironic but yeahh..
and we having POTluck party!!
hahaa, PORTluck or PORKluck??!!
and we shall play for the entire night like how we did it on the last night of the seminar
and see the surviving ones..
now there's no more closing ceremony for us to sleep in alr :P

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WHY IS THE WORLD LIKE THAT AS IT IS?

sometimes i wonder why i dislike someone..
is the person really seriously so awful?
or is it that ive yet to seen the other side of her.
and ive just been nasty to those people.
maybe i should try to accept people as who they are
and it would probably make my life happier
instead of just screaming and shouting at every single thing she does..
and just pray and hope that there is really ANOTHER side of her for me to accept.
i bet there is,
cos remember, the world is always fair...

is heaven really such a nice place??
is there such place as heaven??
why people always think death as an easy way out
when they are in times of deep trouble?
i think it's cos people always think that heaven is such a nice place where everyone will go to in their afterlife.
i dont really believe in these..
but i wonder if everyone were to go up there,
wouldnt it be as nasty as it is here
cos all the politics, competition and nonsense will be up there as well...?
and if we were to imagine Heaven as a disgusting place,
dirty, full of nasty people, politics, competition, blah blah blah...
will people stop contemplating about deaths
and learn how to appreciate what they are having now
and see things in another point of view.
i once read the book "The Five People You Meet In Heaven"
it's describes heaven as a place like the norm..
white clouds, frothy and pure
peaceful and empty..
and you will meet 5 people that you've met in your beforelife
and you understand situations with these people better
although things weren't as good before that.
abit chim..
but i think you should read it,
cos it's really really nice..
oh ya, by Mitch Albom..
back to my point.
if people need to go to heaven to understand why things happen as it is,
why cant we do it now?
why must we wait,
bear grudges for the rest of out lives
before we understand how things were supposed to be.
so i choose not to believe in the norm that heaven should be like.
for now,
my perception of heaven shall be a stretch of endless cement ground
which is really empty
better not expect to be so nice
if not we would want to choose as our next alternative if things aren't gonna work out in life.
till i find how i wish to fill it up.
cos i still believe that we wont remember anything after we passed on...

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i think that's all for my thoughts and questions for today.
cos i really cant put in proper words the rest of them
they really obstructed my cute lil spongebob from absorbing my econs wonderful knowledge..
i love that subject!
really!! no scarcasm..
cos i think it made so much sense.
especially after every point they will say "Ceteris Paribus"
which means the point holds if the other factors are held constant.
cos it will bring everything back to Earth
our normal life
that perfect situations wont occur as planned.

i remember once telling KC
that our study plan and academics..
that all will go smoothly and we'll score out A's if we were to follow the ideal way
but because we often have distractions and choose not to do it,
it usually deviates from ideality.
so real gas will never never exist,
and Px will never be true as supposed to be
and the last part of quantum physics will always so true.
the more you try to find out the position of an object
the less you'll be able to.
cos there's one thing that is constant.
and that is CHANGE.
whaaa... sound so like pro..!
hahaaa, actually for the physics part,
i didnt study that part!!!!
hahaaa!
cos the notes is like super duper dupLY thick
that when i reach that part,
all my stamina gone!
Lol..
and luckily it didnt come out..
so expected...:)

oh ya
another amusing convo on one of the exam days.
me kc and wl were talking about how to study for Math paper
so im like saying try out the questions in the notes
and KC replied sth like
"yahh, try until can memorise what questions inside already.."
cos we always do that,
but when the questions in the paper differs,
we will be like "ehhh!!"
hehe, then we wondered will we still be able to answer the question if it is to be exactly the same as the notes,
will we be able to do it??
hahaa, never tried before..
Math tutor, maybe can try it out.
and see how many people practise math in this sense

enough of nonsense..
shall not deviate from ideality too much today.
and have enough of my beauty sleep
cos my eyelids are like drooping to the max..!
how to go out and have fun after that in this state??!?!?!

ohh, i bought a cute squeaky toy for Kaiser.
it's a BANANAAA!!
and it can be skinned!
damn cute..!
dunno if kynan boy will snatch from him?
Lol..
btw kaiser is a old grey furry-to-be-non-furry doggie!!
and kynan is a adorably huggable lovable lil boy!!

gosshhh!!
im beginning to deviate from ideality!!
tata!!!