back home

finally back to the civilisation
after the long stay at the hills, NTU.
been seeing the same group of people and surroundings for the past many days
though they're fun group of peeps and the living conditions are well above standards
but still... i miss my normal life.[except the mugging part]

the past 6 days were well filled with ups and downs.
when i feel discouraged, angry, happy, ecstatic, boy-crazy, real tired out, not-sure-who-i-am
and so many many others which i cant remember now.
btw i think i slept less than 24 hours for the past 5 nights for sure.
it's when you finally get to hang out with the A2 peeps and some others
that you cant resist the temptation not to play cards with them rather than having the beauty sleep
CONSEQUENCES: after the entire event, i was like zonking out practically everywhere when i went to hang out with jo and qiani in the evening. AND my freaking eye bags and dark circles! shooo they go!!!

i dont feel like myself throughout the entire thing
i'm like being another person since my heart wasnt in this even at all right from the start.
i think is those in sgSIX aka sexySIX that made my day sometimes.
overalll, they're entertaining and so nice to me esp when i complain my grievances to them whenever a particular group of people pissed me off.
i think it's all the expectations that matters.
i've seen that when some other sg and slos are enjoying themselves
why cant we
and tadaaa.. for the last 3 days i did!

especially sandcastle building.
when i forgotten my roles of the slo [did only welfare checks here and there]
when i just joined in the fun
and sweat it all out.
and we built a cruise! from a actually industry park with a twin towers.
i ended the day's activities happy and glad with some scratches here and there
thanks to some stranger who popped out in this chapter of my life
and of course we're a enthu group of people!

i think whatever people say really will make an impact on how we react towards others.
so maybe we should sometimes keep our mouth shut
and keep these thoughts to ourselves.
i cannot believe that these people that i meet will remain in my life for so long
and my belief is that though as significant as they are
as much thoughts i put onto them
their impression will fade off after time erodes those feelings we had.
they will all be forgotten until i take these chapters of my life out
and wipe the dust off the surface
till then...

went to chat with jojo.
really missed her during the 6 days
that i'll look for her whenever she's on duty and did our despo talks at her duty point.
it's amusing how much stuffs are going on in our individual life.
the boys in our lives!
see the letter S!
suppose to go home from tamp cos i was zonking out even when walking
and took 69 home
she kindly offered to take the bus home with me with an ulterior motive right??
and i went high and ecstatic when some stranger replied
and yeahhh.
we dropped off at some weird stop
and spent another hour or so there until i was sleepy all over again.

i know nothing is going to work out from all these.
they're just the fun element in my 6 days.
so just let it all fade away with time...
anyway I've learn it from him
it's the time spent face to face that matters
technology just do the surface work..
and it could just kill everything it can create just because of some misunderstandings.

though that the entire event is seriously a waste of my time
and now that i dont know how to save my mid years after this "holidays"
shall wait and see..


i seen a rainbow on one of the hectic mornings
it gave me the hopes i believed is in rainbows.
hopes as readily as they are formed like a rainbow
as easily they could fade away like a rainbow too...
but never the less
i still believe in them
and when can i ever see one again...?

DISCLAIMER: nothing of these should be brought out of my blog, cos i really cant stand people mentioning things in my daily life, esp questions. cos it seems like probing into my thoughts. unless im comfortable with it..

RANDOMS:
why do people blog?
to tell others whatever is happening in our lives
to say things that will make us feel uncomfortable talking about it
why do people read blogs?
to know more things that are happening around us
to criticise whatever the others is thinking.