lost in my world

just a short post to get me away from the computer
i feel lost at times when i dont know who to turn to.
when some people already having their own cliques
and some others with their own close friend
and sometimes i just wish i could just remain alone
with no complications
but i could not bring myself to do so
cos i fear lonesome.
i fear losing someone i cherish
i fear being alone
i detest being ignored
hence i detest taking the first step

i know some people are already taking the first step
and are trying their best
but i feel bad making them sacrifice because of me
i dont know why
i dont know what i want
that's the reason why i'm lost...

-the rustic feel that i seek for...
the pain behind the beautiful facade...-

PS: i'm contemplating making this blog private cos i've been sharing much more than i think i'm supposed to since im getting more and more lazy to write in my beloved diary.