invested-ed

relieved that all had ended.
memories are all that matters to me.
cos i believe in fate
all that feel that are once there are gone
means that it's meant to be gone.

the sound of the video brought me back
it triggered back the past.
the long long past that i've lived my life for
the word past...

tears are there for a reason
be it nostalgic, disappointment or joy
i cant differentiate as well.

i cant do anything to change when not everyone bothers thinking...

i'm glad i will no longer wear the badge
cos i can do whatever i like and not be held down by it.
hate it when people use the theory that because we are holding some "holy" position that we cant do anything. cant control the school cohort but only controlling us puppets. come on get a life. stop scolding us when you yourself cant set a good example either. i'm just ranting about some teacherS who cant help but spoiled my entire day. and so many other stuffs happened. pms, blahh blahh blahh. but the thing that really made my day for that stupid particular day is still wooottss! haha. not knowing the person is still the best. cos like anyone else, all the impression are the best and it will remain like a stranger. things always turn out differently once the status changed. i bet none of the people can understand what im talking about, because im abit confused too. maybe this is my weakness of my GP essays when my teacher will just bracket the whole paragraph and write "muddled!" hahaas. sometimes the way life turns out just make me wonder why am i here in the first place.

one of my sisters once told me(i think i vaguely remembered), as one grows older, it will be harder to make more friends. i'm beginning to understand that statement. maybe cos we know ourselves better and not agree with what others are doing, hence not being to make more friends as easily as when we are young. maybe this is the reason why im holding on to the friendship so strongly, and how much it hurts when those words are said few weeks ago. fat hon hon once asked me if i were given a chance to choose if i will take the form again, i answered yes, rather straightaway.. cos of these few particular friends i've made.. i dont want to pester you to call me, cos i know you've got someone to talk to already. and i dont wish to pass my emo bites to you! well, there's always one particular thing on earth that makes life worth living for.. cheerios!

In Life’s Garden

Count your garden by the flowers,
never by the leaves that fall.

Count your days by the golden hours,
don't remember the clouds at all.

Count your nights by the stars,
not by shadows.

Count your life with smiles not tears,
and with joy through all your life.

Count your age by friends not years.

*****

i cringe
i stare
and i walk away...