mumblings and grumblings

ALERT!! MUMBLINGS AND GRUMBLINGS

my "favourite" hobby for the past weeks:
Pre-U Seminar Rehearsals.

i finally saw the importance of it when the principals and teachers can jeopardise our studies to the extent of declaring 2 E-learning days just for some plain dumb rehearsals with no flexibility and DEPRIVING us of our weekends TO BE SPENT ON E-LEARNING.

this is like super super unfair, and we have no avenue to vent our frustrations nor anger except complaining to our friends. i've been rather mean to my group leader KK, self-accaimed kawaiiKAIWEI. i will just tell her that i want to pon some rehearsals or dumb stuff but just make up some fake reasons, letting her lie to the teachers. well, i really cant help it. cos i cant see the point in going for all these.

wait till i see the appreciation we should get before i will really put my heart and soul into this event, which i think i'm "forced" to participate in. some times the teachers just think that by saying some nice stuffs infront of us, are showing their understanding for our plight. i wont see them as understanding us unless i see actions. letting us walk to and fro at the enormous university after the whole afternoon of climbing UP many levels of steps in some dungeon-like stairway WHILE they themselves can JOLLY WELL drive past us in their pretty carS! and after that all they said is "sorry for making you walk up and down." this is just one of the many things i detest.

as important as the ceremonies may be, i dont think we need so much rehearsal to the extent of 2 full days on Thurs and Fri, when they can just talk less and be concise and save our time. and they make us go school at 545am in the morning. had they forgotten we are students and not someone who have pretty cars to drive around. well, i've been rather mean and bad mood on wednesday and i just messaged our kawaiiKAIWEI "are the school asking SBS to start their services earlier for us?" well, it meant to have the sarcasm in it, but she dont seem to get it, and i felt so guilty being so mean to a innocent girl..

NOW, after the today, i think i'm beginning to accept these irritating stuff with the people around us. my group is very encouraging for me in a sense that at least they dont bore me out and we even went to Simpang Bedok for dinner today. it's rather heart-warming when i recalled the times when i was just an OGL and there wasnt much politics as everyone is just there to receive instructions. when we just did what we like, complain and make noise as much as we want. apologies to you guys okays.. cos they always have to hear me complain, and they even help me carry my shoe bag. haha. tell you they are great alr!

and woohoooo!!! MJC soccer team onto the finals this wednesday once again!!! yesshhhh!!

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i feel that i'm so weak this year.
i've been doing very little
i've been feeling very tired.
but my brain had been working alot...
thinking too much is really very tiresome..

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i feel drained at tired.
i cant comprehend what's on your mind...

-where is my long awaited rainbow?
Rainbow brings the much-needed joy to my day...-

PS: i cant stand people with no ORIGINALITY! oh come on... have a style of your own please!
human is just so interesting that though we know we or others hate it, yet we still like to do it...