life as it is

I'm rather slack this weekend, but at the same time, if i were to study at the rate im doing before MYEs, i will definitely lose lots of hair.Because i have a bad habit of pulling my aweful-texture hair out, and many a times i can still use a scissors to bunches of them out. yeahh, this is how bad my habit is.

went shopping with mum, jiejie and kynan boy! he's seriously seriously a BIG boy..! BIG as in literal and grown up i think. hahaa, literally cos i think many strangers thought that he's two when he's only one plus, then his mommy feeling damn proud when ppl say she's a young mother. and when i heard it, it amuses me, cos that means she's those teenage mums?? that means..... blah blah blah, go figure it out yourself. but noooo.. of course she's not.

grown up cos the lil boy know's how to call so many of our names. names as in mummy, yiyi, mahmah and even KAIKAI, kaiser the doggie you know! jie jie is finally glad that he keeps calling mummy, like free like that! haha, but it's really free right? he's certainly so adoraaabllleee!! and i think all the salespersons of the shop or waitresses of the restaurant we goes to seems so entertained by him, including his loud BYE~~ when we are leaving the shop and restaurant. had dinner at Crystal Jade Palace, rather different from the other crystal jades ive been to, i think this is more high end? they even provide utensils for lil kynan, and that lil pesky one created his own "music" with those mini fork, spoon and bowl. jiejie, maybe you should be happy that he's slightly musically-inclined! bought him one cute lil crayon. it's actually a wooden ball of different colours at the different sides. too bad the he only know how to put it inside his mouth.. it's from a shop called Better Toy Shop. all made from real wood, that a part of the train tracks can cost up to 80bucks! certainly singaporeans are becoming more affluent, cos such shop even exist. you know the supply meets the demand, yadayadayada... BUT still, kids know how to appreciate the REAL wood??? butBUT STILL kynan boy seems interested in the ENTIRE train set, cos he don't seem entertained by the only one train that his mom got for him, though its cost enough to get my FOX slippers! how fortunate kids are now.. though he be so entertained and can spend so much time in the shop keeping those trains in their lil depots..

it's certainly fun to see a baby growing up, especially this is the first time for me. yeahh, im the youngest ma! last time jiejie seen me grow up, and now my turn to see her lil emperor.. Lol.. great exchange, cos both equally adorable mahh?!?!? hahaa, bhb-ness! recalling the first time i've been to the hospital to visit sis and him, he's so small and errrhhhh small, and not very aesthetically-pleasing[all new-borns are the same to me i guess..], but when i see his two deep double eye-lids and the deep-imprinted dimples, knew he will be a dashing boyfriend in future! and now, he's certainly an adorable toddler with his huge dark eyes. hope the relativity of the size of the eyes can maintain as years pass!

on display.
Price: PRICELESS!
the lil pesky one behind the glass display!

it's seems that he's growing up fast, but knowing the pains and effort that so many people have to endure for him, certainly made parenting a dilemma, yeah, GP remember? more blessings than chores or vice versa? nevertheless, he certainly makes people fall head over heels in LOVE with him! and LOVE supposed to make the world goes round yeahh?

i see the way sis work so hard, all the stress, tears, politics she had to endure, to get this comfort in her life. as much as it pushes me to work hard for it, it also made me realise how much money is needed to get to ENJOY life, how much sacrifices, how much pain one has to endure. as much as qualifications can bring one up to, the negatives are also of the same equivalent. and i think the combination of "accountant/auditor+good mommy+good daughter+good wife+good daughter-in-law+overly-doting parents=real pain in the arse=high threshold level!"
tolerance and patience also make the world goes round i guess...

my teacher once asked us: do you wish to be a small fish in a big pond or a big fish in a small pond?
can i ask for a medium size fish in a small pond?
ain't i've gotten what i've gotten?
i think the best is still a big fish is a big pond.
but still, everything is a relativity, you wont be appeased until you've been at the worst.