sighs..

today had pe!
finally exercised after the long long from school.
felt so nice and refreshed
though i felt like vomiting and so dizzy after running, screaming climbing up the wobbly chair
yepp! we played captains ball!
GIRLS captains ball..
so have the screaming part INCLUSIVE.
it's nice nice nice :)
especially the feel of about the all the girls played!
i think it's like once in my these 1 year plus with them as classmates..
yeahh,
obviously my class is not bonded
and im to blame also
cos i always chose council over class i guess.
and the whole reason why i joined council was also partly cos of the class.
sighs..
all these decisions.
nehh-theless,
today had fun!

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i think the state of the IVLE and workbins of the different subject speaks a dozen about the department.
ive been thinking that i department seriously need a authorative and good leader.
it makes such significant impact on the grades.
not sure if it's the teachers i got for my subjects or whatsoever.
but i always and will still always feel the same.
as long as you are no longer in the first class,
you seem to must be able to accept any shit mentor you are given.
in this case, it's pretty obvious who's the mentor im referring to.
im especially pissed and disappointed with one of them today.
imagine we are going through the mcq paper
and he was going through one of the question
when he/she just read read read the questions.
i and after that,
read out the answer!
like woaaahhhh!!
we dont know like that.
and i still exclaimed loudly huh why???
but still..
we went on to the next question!
like whaaaa!
totally felt that my that subject was total goner.
dont know how to save myself.
how can i save myself even if i practise
and have no one to approach?
i seriously have no idea.
and i think i not only have one of such teacher but TWO!
shall find a way out.
WITHOUT depending on him/her.
cos i think it's more than one time.
what is the highly regarded, fine education system are we having???
are teachers just occupation for people who have no other jobs they want to be
like the last resort and last alternative
since many say it's a metal/golded rice bowl???
i seriously have no idea.
no wonder 97/100 children in singapore now have tuition.
now i understand why
and i shall join the 97 students soon..
but still feeling uncomfortable.
cos ive not have any tutors since sec2??
cos i used to think as long as we are hardworking,
all our teachers will be able to help us
and dislike tuition
but i think i better start to think otherwise..
before it's too late...

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im still waiting as much as i said i wont
i guess...